Yes Beaser, I very much relate. I’ve struggled with fatigue since I was 13 and had to adapt to a new normal with major shifts in my health. So many times I’ve felt I’ve let others down because I just haven’t had the same energy and capacity to do everything they do. And I think some of us are just more sensitive and need more time to rest and recharge.
You seem like a sensitive soul and you care about not wanting to let others down. I’ve had this sensitivity but I’ve gradually learned in recent times to sense what I’m really up for and what’s really too much for me. I’ve realised that it’s ok to say no to others. Some people are not always understanding but I’ve found the most genuine friends do get it. And I’ve also found that it’s those friends that too set limits on what they do. They’re more sensitive too.
There might be times it’s good to motivate yourself to do things, but I think the best thing is to tune in to your inner voice and how you feel in your body too. You could try imagining both scenarios, doing the activity and then not doing it, and see what it feels like inside. Whatever feels most peaceful I think is usually the right decision.
Spending time with others can certainly really help us with the right people and an activity we enjoy. But it’s good to be aware of our limits too. Another option to going away for a few days, if it feels too much, is catching up with people more briefly, such as having coffee, seeing a movie, or whatever you like to do. It can take the pressure off being social for several days but you still get the interaction.
Hope you’re feeling better and you don’t need to feel guilty (I’m only learning in recent times not to feel guilty myself - that I can make decisions according to my own needs and interests rather than worrying about pleasing others).
