Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Oh lass I wish I could give you a shoulder to cry on in r/l. Let the tears flow lass & if bed feels the best place to be then snuggle down with your lovely Stormy & spend as long as you need there. Grief & loss don't have rules.

Let the hurt out... then think about how she would like you to remember her... the love you have for her... that will never go away... let her dancing spirit see you smile when you think of her...

Hugs from me & snuzzles from Woofa

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy, aw that's no good girl. Have a day in bed if you need. Sam sends warm fluffy soft hugs and cuddles oxoxox

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

I got sad

Then I got mad

Oh dear. I think it might be time to pop a pill, or call for some help. I'm losing it

[Sophie_M]

Hi Katy,

We're so sorry to hear it's been such an exhausting and emotional time. It sounds like you've had a lot to cope with. Please don't hesitate to call for some help in whichever form you find most helpful. Remember our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) if you need them.

We hope the warm messages from your friends in the community are of some comfort. We hope you can find some peace and some rest tonight.
 

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy, I hope you phoned someone...

I'm only here for a minute... I know you feel terrible, but you will get through this. you will. You have been in this place before, you know you do get out of it again, just get through and hang on until it eases. I know it's horrible. Sometimes all you can do is just hang on for dear life girl. So you hang on. One tiny bit at a time you will get through this again. OK? I will come by tomorrow. Meantime I hope you phone someone and talk to someone. Hang on to Stormy! The awful horrible stuff will ease..it will! Fluffiest hugs from us here oxoxox

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

You're right. It all felt the same. I felt the sadness roll on in, and then all the gross thoughts. I drove to my ex's house and trashed his balcony. Just threw all his potted plants off - even the heavy pots, with my herculean anger, and then his furniture. He waited patiently (or shocked, perhaps) until I was done, and then started tidying up. I drove home, but I felt unsafe with myself, so I rang the BB helpline. My first time ringing them, and the lady was very nice.

Today, I'm tired, sore, and sad. I have to go to uni as I'm struggling to make hours by the end date. All I want to do is curl up in bed with a blanket over my head and just hide. Yesterday was an absolute mess. But I got through I guess. I liked your message too, thankyou. Just hang on. I did and I'm still here...

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

Well, goodness, I hope you feel better now! Anger is better than depression anyway. I hope your ex is OK about the plants and furniture...

Glad you got it off your chest and I hope you made Uni OK. Sounds like you had quite a wild ride yesterday, probably letting the anger out was a very healthy thing to do. Now keep going - the best way to remember your little girl is to live the best life you can - her memory lives on while you do, OK? Hugs.

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy, just thought i'd come by and say hello, I hope your week at Uni went OK for you. Pats to Stormy oxox

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

So sweet of you to check in, thankyou 🙂

I've said hi over on your thread x

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

I'm losing track of time - have you finished Uni yet or is that next week? Have you had hot weather over there, it's hitting here next week (dread).

Did you find anything to read yet?

Anyway just popped by to say hello. oxox