Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy, how was your day today? Did you go to the beach with Stormy? I hope you found something nice to do to take your mind off Uni stuff...

It's turned very cold here with possible snow forecast later in the week, it's such wierd weather!

I'm watching the DVD Withnail and I - have you ever seen it? It's a hoot - had a cult following long ago...

Sending fluffy hugs to you and Storm from little Sam xoxoxo

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

I hope you enjoyed the visit from your son.

It's good to hear you have a friend at uni to talk to. Did you take a pot plant in for your desk?

With all of the cold fronts the weather maps have shown crossing WA I've been imagining you moving your pot plants inside & back out. I suspect you are building up your muscles by now.

Take care

Hugs

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy

Just wondering if you are coming back? I hope you are OK. Let us know if you are around.. fluffy hugs from Sam xoxo

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hello

I'm still around. Just trying to get through to the finish line of prac. I'm tired, tired, tired and sick of the stress.

It was lovely to see my son though, and the weather was nice enough for a walk on the beach while he was here. He bought me a book about Wim Hof. Have you heard of him? I hadn't. But he's big on mind over matter, and I guess my boy thought it might help.

Fast approaching the one year anniversary I won't be celebrating. Can't believe it's been nearly a year. Doesn't feel like it. Time flies whether you're having fun or not... Any advice in advance of how to make that easier when it arrives will be appreciated.

Much huggles to you both. Boy I could go a hug. Katy

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

Nice to see you back. I haven't heard of that name at all but i'm glad you had a nice time with your son...

I'm not sure about the anniversary, can you get flowers or light a candle... do something that is meaningful for you and that doesn't make you feel worse but that remembers your little one in a good, beautiful way...

Be gentle with yourself, which is what I am trying hard to do today too... soft hugs from little Sam to you and Stormy oxoxo

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Well it's the one year anniversary of my little one leaving me, and what a glorious day it is!! The sky is blue, the sunshine warm, and a nice gentle breeze. I imagine my little spirit girl is dancing amongst the blossoms of the tree in my back yard.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

The image of her dancing in the blossoms is so lovely.

Gentlest of hugs lass.

Paws

[Hanna3]

That sounds a lovely way to think of your girl Katy... hugs

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

I hope you got through that day OK, it sounds like at least it was a lovely day with the weather for you... Have you decided what to do about your Honours course?

Paws is worried about her beloved Woofa and I am deluged with paperwork for Housing, but do come by and comment when you can manage it around your Uni, we don't hear much from you these days. Take care, oxox

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hello

I got through yesterday ok, but apparently all I want to do today is cry. So I haven't gone to uni. MIght even go hop back into bed. I'll come check in when I'm feeling better xo