Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[golden82]

Hi Katy, noticed u changed your pic from beautiful Stormy to the rubbish bag and read your posts. I'm really sorry to hear u feeling this way. You are so valued on here, by the regulars but also ppl like me who just read.. you probably don't realise how much you help others. We are here for u. I hope u feel better and up to popping in soon. And that Storm makes a return 🙂 Take care of yourself Katy

[Guest_1643]

Hi Katy, I'm sensitive to certain weird vibes and get like a predictive feeling sometimes, like things are going pear shaped.

I can relate jn that way and am sorry it's been a weird time for u, those times can be so draining.

I was wandering how Ur doing x

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Here is a gentle comforting bear hug.... & Woofa sends a big nose bop

Be gentle with yourself lass.

Paws

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Just popping in to remind you there are people who love & care about you lass... here & in r/l.

No pressure for you to reply... but know I am here to listen lass if you need to talk about the weird feeling or even just... to talk of many things... like ships & shoes & sealing wax & cabbages & kings... or anything that might give you a break...

Woofa sends you ear snuffles & here are some gentle hugs from me

Paws

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi all

It has been a weird and uncomfortable time. Thank you all for popping in. I’ve been trying to up my self care with eating better and daily exercise. Yesterday I went for a bike ride and ended up at the beach. It was so appealing I decided on a dip in my undies. It was just me and a boy, who gave me a lovely grin as we flopped about enjoying ourselves. Sometimes life really is good.

Graduation is end of month. I declined to attend anyway, but I feel sorry for my fellow graduates who won’t have their families there now due to covid restrictions. I do look forward to getting my official certificate though. I’m going to frame it and cover it in gold stars 😄

Thanks for the huggies, nose boops, kind words, and support. You’re all wonderful, and I hope you’re all managing ok.

Paws, your italicised words made me grin! Where are they from? x

Katy

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy,

Gosh I'm so sorry to hear about your graduation, I hadn't thought about that!!! How are they doing it? That's such a big moment for you to miss.

Get your degree framed and hang it on the wall, it's hard earned!

I'm glad you are getting to the beach. Doing nice things outdoors in these times is essential for our sanity. I actually declined a move back to coastal town after two days of indecision and a very long talk with a much missed friend there, who said the humidity and heat are now so extreme, and she is older than me and our other friends have moved to other areas, and she said to return with most friends gone and no air conditioning in the public housing (and it can't be installed in the units there), to think hard about it, but the heat/humdity was a deciding factor.... the dog park has friendly folk in it here so maybe as the pandemic eases a bit things will slowly improve, and I'll try to transfer to a better home in the area. At least facilities are good and all nearby.

I don't know how things are going pandemic wise in your area, I hope you are managing OK with all the strange new things that are so tiresome that you have to get accustomed to now... you will be fine and get incredibly used to it...

I hope Stormy and the other furs are keeping well there with you and being good company for you.

Big hug, and I'm so sorry about the disappointment of missing the grad. ceremony, but at least you'll have the degree!!!!

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

I love the sound of your dip... such fun... I am a bit jealous... you are lucky having such empty beaches to enjoy...

My part quote was from the poem The Walrus & the Carpenter in Lewis Carroll's Through the Looking Glass...

I'm glad to see you have thrown out your rubbish avatar... hopefully you managed to toss some of the rubbish thoughts that have been troubling you along with it...

Woofa says "you are very welcome" for thanking him for his nose bops.... though he is a bit miffed that you said we were all wonderful as he thinks that he is all the wonderful anyone needs... he is sitting on my lap as I type this...

Hugs

Paws

[JackFrost]

Hi Katy,

You have done an amazing job.

I haven't posted much but I liked checking in to see how you were going. You always had support here, so that has been amazing too.

You should be very proud of yourself. I know it's hard to do. But even if you don't go to the graduation, present the certificate to yourself, shake your own hand, then acknowledge the crowd (a mirror will work because you got you through it all).

Be proud of yourself.

All the best

Jack

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Katey,

A huge congratulations and well done on your graduation...how super special is that...you have done an amazing job right throughout your studies...I really do hope you are as proud of you that we all are....

I like the idea of framing it and covering it with gold Stars..It will look so good hanging on your wall....

Thank you for your well wishes at mine..I really do appreciate it...and all the other well wishes I have listened to...

Always remember lovely Katey...you have done all your studying on your own and have accomplished so very much...both in university and here on the forums with your caring presence....while you have been struggling yourself at times...You are one awesome beautiful lady inside and out...

Kind thoughts with live and hugs to you and everyone reading...💜🧸🤗🕊🌱..

Grandy..

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

… one poor old kitty has gone for a long goodnight…

sad Katy is sad