how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[B_W_]

Hi Mark,

that is so sad! But a very lucky kitty that you came along!
I would be lost without my cat Zelda. She’s not very affectionate and doesn’t like being picked up but she is my shadow and follows me everywhere and watches me in the garden too.

I am hoping I can adopt a dog soon, just trying to find the right fit for Zelda. I have always had cats and dogs growing up too. I even had some pet rats at one point haha I would have very pet there is if I could

i repotted my tomato plant yesterday. It’s still a baby but not looking well. Fingers crossed it survives in a bigger pot. I need to organise some proper beds for veggies I think. It’s hard when I am renting because I want to be able to take all of my plants with me.

I hope you have a good day. We are having beautiful summer weather in Melbourne

chat soon.
take care,

Briony

[Matchy69]

Hi Briony I like your cat's name Zelda.My cat Bubbles dosnt like to be picked up either but needs to know where I am.Sleeps on the end of my bed.Dogs are great company to.When I had a dog I use to get up early and take her for long walks.Sadly I can't walk to far these days as I use to.
I miss sharing my stories with my friend about my kids,my garden and everyday life.I use send photos my garden in bloom or a rose in flower.It feels so empty not to share that with someone and hearing their stories from coming from another country and everything.I feel like it's a permeant loneliness I have now.At least this site gives me someone to talk to.
Take care,
Mark.

[B_W_]

Hi Mark,

I feel exactly the same.I would love to hear your stories though. And any gardening tips you have for a beginner! Haha

its not the same and I am always lonely but I am glad I reached out on here. It helps

Take Care,

Briony

[Matchy69]

Hi Briony how are coping?I seem to be feeling down of late.
Yesterday I took the kids bowling for a day out efore school goes back.It was a fun day for the kids.My son won at bowling and we got heaps of tickets from the games afterwards for them to choose prizes.
I took my daughter for a driving lesson and I get so nervous in the car with her.I just googled how much lessons would be.I try and book her in for lessons in the next few months.I am not sure how that will go with her anxiety and selective mutism.
Gardening is always learning experience.I have been doing it all my life as my mother was a big gardener.I always happy to help anyone.I have a lot of knowledge on vegies and fruit trees and roses.Just grow what you like and see how it goes.I aleays taking photos of my flowers and garden and it is interesting to look back through the photos.
I have just purchased a shed so that will be another project I will have to do.Its going to be my workshop for restoring my motorbikes in.I trying to find things to do to take my mind of things even as hard it is at times but myife goes on.I think that is the key is finding things to do.
Take care,
Mark

[Matchy69]

I am starting to feel very low today.Been crying a lot.I wishing things were different.Wishing I had my friend to talk to.Picking up my phone and realising their is no one to talk to.I put on one of my favourite cds Abbey Road and just laying on my bed regretting things how they turned out.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I am so sorry to hear that yesterday was tough for you, that you did spend the day feeling so bad and upset. Music is a wonderful healer but it can also evoke feelings of sadness and pain too, so try some uplifting tunes to help with the pain, that is what I have been trying to do of late.

How are the kids going, is today the first day back at school? How are they feeling about the new school year?

Mine start on Monday and are both looking forward to it, I think just the routine and being back with friends.

Hope today is better for you my friend and that you have some small thing to make you smile.

Hugs as always

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah it is always lovely to hear from you.The kids started school yesterday.A few moments with my daughter apparently as I did not take her for the first time for her first day as I don't have a car at the moment as I lent it to my ex as she doesn't have a car at the moment.Another story thats depressing me.I least I still have two motorbikes registered.O managed to get another project not exactly what I was after but it will do and the best thing it was free and came with a parts bike.I should be excited but fallen into deep depression again.I hope your kids enjoy going back to school next week.I hope we can get through a full year but am prepared for anything.
Take care,
Mark.

[Matchy69]

A bad weekend of crying no one to talk to just nobody.

[B_W_]

Hi Mark,

sorry I have been quiet lately. My depression and anxiety are really taking a hold of me at the moment too.
I feel bad coz I just don’t know what to say as im not feeling overly positive right now.

I hope you’re ok

[Matchy69]

Hi Briony i am so sorry you are struggling as well.I know how hard it can be and I wish their was an easy answer.I just feel my friend was the only one who could make me feel good about myself.I just go through periods where I struggle so much and want her in my life.
I am here if you need to talk even just venting.
Take care,
Mark