how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Aaronsis]

HI Mark

I am sad to hear that you are feeling lonely and down. It is a yukky place to be and I hope that it does not last long and that you can find something to bring a smile to your face. I am just starting to think about some Christmas baking and I was thinking that I am sure that you will have a few things that you do each year for Christmas. Is there anything that you do at this time of year baking wise?

I really want to make a gingerbread house and decorate it but then there is the thing with what do you do with it after the day as it is a lot of gingerbread to eat.....and lollies too, but I am sure the kids wont mind so maybe I will think about that. Have you ever made one?

Just waiting for the coffee guy to make my skinny chai and then I will be happy for the day....hope that today brings something to put a smile on your face my friend.

Hugs to you as always

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I hope you are having a nice day.I daughter gets back in 3 hours and that's year 11 done and dusted for her.One more to go and then what I don' know.I might take her Christmas shopping tomorrow and take her for a driving lesson.

Take care,

Your fiend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

I hope everyone is coping with the heat ok unfortunately with my poor health I am struggling in the heat.

Have a nice day everyone.

[Matchy69]

I am still waiting for more surgery and don't know if it will get done before Christmas now.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

Firstly I love the flower that you have posted, it is stunning.

I have been a bit quiet lately, I have just been working on me to be honest and just taking some time to join the dots and make the picture come to life..so to speak.

I hope that you get some positive news with regards to your surgery. It has been such a tough year for you on top of the COVID stuff but with this as well.

I am so interested to see what good things next year brings and how we all get back up from such a huge punch this year.

How is Alabama doing now that her schooling has finished for the year? What has she been up to and I am wondering how she is feeling now that the pressure of school is over for awhile?

I am really so shocked that Christmas is only two weeks away, even though it happens at the same time every year I feel like it really has come up and surprised me this year. I am not sure what I will be doing on the day but am having dinner with my dad tonight to sort all that out.

I saw your message about the heat, we are doing alright in that it hasn't been too hot here just yet. How are you coping though as I can see that QLD have had some really hot days.

It is cool here in Melbourne today with rain and crazy winds which kind of scare me as I don't like the damage that they can do.

Hope today is treating you well and that you have been able to smile.

Hugs to you as always my friend

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah it's good to hear from again I have been missing are chats.I understand about working on yourself.
It has been high 30s-40 degrees here the past few weeks.And other parts of Australia are cold.I had a storm last night and some rain this morning but it is really muggy at the moment.
I just witnessed a car accident this morning in my street when I was coming home after dropping Phoenix off at school.My neighbour backed into the neighbour across the road.Not much damage but just enough to be a nuisance going through the insurance company and getting it fixed.
Alabama hasn't been doing much just playing on her laptop and I got her to help with some gardening this morning and got her to pick the rest of the corn before the mice eat it.I am going to take her for a driving lesson tomorrow and am more nervous then ever after this morning.
My profile picture is of my sunflower I have growing.A different one to the normal yellow one.
I won't be doing much for Christmas ,I just find it a sad time of the year for me and haven't been to good with the heat.
I had a letter from the hospital the other day and rung them and am still no wiser when I am having the surgery.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

Thank you for saying those kind words about me working on myself and taking some time for me. It is a balance for me and I am just doing what my heart is telling me to, and that includes time on the forum to support others too, if I am low and not feeling good how can I support another and talk about self care and wellness if I am not doing that for myself, seems a bit silly really...lol

Wow you have been having some really warm weather, not so much for us here but the next few days are going to be stunning so I am really looking forward to that, not too hot, just lovely.

I hope the kids are going ok and that you can get to do some cool things together over the Christmas break. I am going to take mine camping for a week to my dad's on the Snowy River so I am soo super excited for that, some time in nature and some time on the land.

Have a great day and it is always great to hear from you my friend.

Hugs

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah it was good to here from you and a camping trip in the Snowy Mountains sounds nice.I don't think I will be doing anything exciting.I told my daughter I might take her to see the waterfall which is about an hour away from here.It might be running if we get this torrential rain they are forecasting.

I been having a good harvest in the vegie garden and picked all my corn and having the best crop of tomatoes and eggplants and my holder nugget pumpkin has loads on it.My watermelon has a lot on it half grown and should be ready just after Christmas.

Bith kids have finished school now for the year and my son got a free Photo with Santa.

It looks like we will get some good rain in the next few days hopefully and the heatwave has disappeared with much nicer days and cool nights.

I am still waiting for the hospital to ring me for my surgery.Hopefully I get in soon.

Tale care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Good Morning my friend

Hope you got to take your daughter to the waterfall, if so how was it? I am sure stunning, how could a waterfall not be stunning...

I am taking my daughter and some of her friends to a local quarry to swim today, I am not sure if I will swim but it is a beautiful space so hopefully just suck up the scenery and have some nice mental health time.

Hopefully you get some news soon on your surgery, I know this has been really tough for you and I hope that it does not drag to much in to 2021 for you and that you can get some resolve in this space.

Your harvest sounds awesome and you are so clever in all that you grow, I really have to take a leaf out of your book and get my little pots re organised and get some more things in there growing...I love it and feel so proud when I have grown something so I need to get back to planting something.

Are you organised for Christmas? Will you be doing any special baking or cooking for the day/time? My daughter made some really yummy biscuits so I am going to get her to do some...hopefully she will..lol

Ok well off to the dentist this morning so have a really awesome day and chat soon my friend.

Hugs

Sarah xxxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah it was good to hear from you.I hope the dentist wasn't to bad for you.It looks like I won't get into surgery now to after Christmas.
I won't be doing much cooking for Christmas .I don't these days and O will just cook a glazed ham and roast duck.I haven't the energy for Christmas anymore.
I haven't been anywhere yet during the school holidays yet.The kids have an appointment with the physio Wendesday .I will take them somewhere after Christmas if I can depending on when surgery will be.I feel like I am in limbo with it.
I have been having bad nightmares about my friend.I just miss her so much.
We had a bit of rain here but not much in the end.Still so dry.I will have to go and water today.
Take care,
Your friend,
Mark.