I'm completely lost in life

Chris D
Community Member

I don't know where to go or what to say or what to do anymore, i'm completely lost. I can't take it anymore, i have a family member who is going in for an operation next wk and so she will need looking after, so how am i meant to fill the requirements i have with centrelink and try and stay well enough to look for work and look after this family member, i've already got enough going on in my head.

I feel like bursting out into tears, i can't take it i'm lost at what to do next. Got no motivation, no drive anymore absolutely pathetic. All i want is a person to listen to me and to give me a hug and put their hand on my back to tell me it's going to be ok.

I feel so alone, so isolated. Even today at a group that i go to i felt all day i was ready to burst into tears. Just want to hit my life away because it's no life at all.I need company but i feel no one wants me or wants to hear from me, it's like they have no time for me feel like a piece of trash lying in the gutter just deteriorating away in the rain.

I just want to cry but the tears won't come, i can feel they are there but not in a position to be let out.

Can anyone provide company and a hug for me please, i really need it please.

Kind Regards

Chris

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Neil_1
Community Member

Hi Chris

Thanx for the update and I hope that everything works out well for you this week and that this upcoming visit isn't held up.  I really think that this is going to be very positive for you.

Please know Chris, we'll be all here for you when you get back ... but you haven't gone just yet, but I just wanted you to know that.

Kind regards

Neil

Chris D
Community Member

Hi Neil and All,

Thankyou for all of your support you hav given me in the past months. I hav just started a new thread dedicated to Jo. Please support Jo while i'm away. I feel she is really going to miss me just like all of you but her in particular, as we have been supporting eachother quite abit.

I feel i have been like a rock for Jo in the past and she needs all the support she can get, just like the rest of us.

Take Care

Chris

Chris D
Community Member
I feel alone & isolated like i'm in a dark cold forest. Inside me is really churning away it's crying out for help, support & encouragement. People think i am well bcause they only c wat let them c which is fake compared to how i am really feeling. I want cry i need to let the tears out but they won't come out.
I sometimes feel that i shouldn't b here as other people need all of the help they can get, i feel wat i am going through is nothing & should just move forward but i can't bcause there is still something inside me that needs attention.
Chris

Jo3
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Chris,

I am so sorry you are feeling so alone and isolated.  But don't think like that because you know what - you have me and all the others on here to help you.  We are walking by your side and are looking after you.

I wish the tears would just flow for you. You should be here Chris, because you have not only helped me but so many other members and you are also helping yourself.  I remember the first post you had on here - boy you were so desperate for help. And we all came along and supported you. And we are doing it again for you because we never let our friends down.,

I really hope you get the care and attention and support from the hospital next week.

Remember Chris, you are not alone.  It's okay to be scared, nervous and sick in the stomach but you will be fine.  I have faith in you that you will be okay.

Keep positive Chris, I know you can do it.

Pls keep in touch

Your friend

Jo

Neil_1
Community Member

Hi Chris,

Mate, everyone who has this illness needs as much support as they can possibly get.  And you are no different ... your issues are incredibly important, because they are affecting YOU.  And Chris, never ever forget that YOU are incredibly important as well.

I know it's such a tough hard battle and it just seems to go on and on with barely any positiveness in the foreseeable future.  But you know 100% you can come here and post away - because you've got friends and mates here and we'll support you to the hilt.  I know it's only via an internet set up, but I hope it means good things for you.

I know it means a hell of a lot to me when I've posted in times of stress before and I receive all these wonderful messages from the brilliant folk on this site.  It does give you a boost.

I wish I could suggest something for the tears as well, but I'm not much use to you with that aspect.

Is it this coming week where you might be having your visit to the facility that you were talking about?  Would it be Monday?  If so, you've battled and struggled through this week ... only the weekend to go, yeah?

Hope you can get back to us.

Kind regards

Neil

 

Suzbj
Blue Voices Member
Blue Voices Member

Hey Chris,

Sending you a hug through space and well wishes! All the best - cheers Suz

Bec775
Community Member
Hi Chris, I hope all is well for you. I came across this post because I googled "I am lost". I am too. Hope everything worked out well for you. I identify with some of your comments. Cheers.. Bec