Mental Health Conditions

people think of me as something i'm not and i hate it i dont know what to do

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I dont know what to do honestly, its been two years and im still anxious and paranoid, people know my real name and face and they harassed me with it two years ago and im still anxious about it because they called me a pedo for liking anime girls, i ... View more

I dont know what to do honestly, its been two years and im still anxious and paranoid, people know my real name and face and they harassed me with it two years ago and im still anxious about it because they called me a pedo for liking anime girls, i was 16, i couldnt of been at all, and it just.. stuffs with my mind so much, I'm not anything they say I am but it bleeds into everything i think about, they got my name and my face on that discord server and who knows what they're saying now about me, it's like a herpes virus it just infects everything i see and i cant take it anymore, i'm lucky a few friends in that community helped me and defended me but i dont know, i feel like i dont deserve anything nice at all, everyday i wake up and i think about what they think of me, i'm only just 18 and i feel like my life is ruined.

Why do I feel / How do I stop feeling really unhappy when someone I don't really know unfriends me

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Hello, I'm coming here because I couldn't really find anything else, and this happens pretty much every time something like this happens. I'll just be looking at messages/gc's and sometimes I'll see that someone's unfriended me. I think all of the ca... View more

Hello, I'm coming here because I couldn't really find anything else, and this happens pretty much every time something like this happens. I'll just be looking at messages/gc's and sometimes I'll see that someone's unfriended me. I think all of the cases have been people I don't really know all too well, but it makes me feel awful. I question all of my past interactions with the person trying to just understand why, like if I did something wrong I'd wanna apologise because that wouldn't have been my intention! I know that usually it's for some other reason and that the person probably doesn't spitefully hate me, but like it really wears on me, and I usually can't sleep for ages or even do other things. I guess what I'm asking is there anything I can tell myself or any ways to stop thinking about this, since it ultimately doesn't matter but yeah...

Family

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My husbands siblings have organised a holiday together without even asking us, it’s made me really upset. I feel bad for my husband as he’s such a nice guy and would never want to leave anyone out. It’s now hard to act like everything is normal aroun... View more

My husbands siblings have organised a holiday together without even asking us, it’s made me really upset. I feel bad for my husband as he’s such a nice guy and would never want to leave anyone out. It’s now hard to act like everything is normal around them, I just don’t know what to do. I feel like distancing myself but is that the right thing to do? Sounds like a small issue but I don’t know why it’s made me upset.

Hashimoto’s Single Parent

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I am a single mum to two teens. My youngest has struggled with School Can’t for the last few years, is very likely Autistic and we are going through the very slow process of diagnosis. I have had to homeschool her, while also working, for the last tw... View more

I am a single mum to two teens. My youngest has struggled with School Can’t for the last few years, is very likely Autistic and we are going through the very slow process of diagnosis. I have had to homeschool her, while also working, for the last two years. My girls’ dad calls them every few weeks and sees them maybe once every couple of months. Financial assistance from him just doesn’t happen so I do my best to make sure they have what they need. These days there is just so little to spare so it’s been a very long time since we had any kind of break from the constant drone. I have had Hashimoto’s disease for about 6 years now. It’s exhausting, and most of the time I have pain. Exercising hurts, even gentle walking, though I used to walk every day. Common foods cause flare ups but I’m so tired most of the time that I just don’t have the energy to do better planning. By the time I get home each day I have to push myself through all the things that need doing but I feel like I’m letting my girls down so much. Every day is just putting on a happy face for the world and my kids and reminding myself that we have food and a roof over our heads and we are safe. I don’t have family support and I’ve really struggled to connect with therapists. I really just don’t know how long I can keep going and keep up the front. The future is looking even harder than the present. Keeping on going was really all I had to rely on but my health is just getting worse and the only thing that keeps me pushing on is my girls. I don’t want to let them down. I don’t want them to be hurting.

I’m lonely and lost and close to giving up completely

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I had an episode of major depression and anxiety almost 4 years ago. Fought on for 18 months before the family had enough and the marriage ended. Divorce going through now. I’m 51. I’ve lost a lucrative career and my home, my grown up sons hate me an... View more

I had an episode of major depression and anxiety almost 4 years ago. Fought on for 18 months before the family had enough and the marriage ended. Divorce going through now. I’m 51. I’ve lost a lucrative career and my home, my grown up sons hate me and won’t speak to me. I have no friends at all and no family in Australia. I literally go to my new crap paid job or sit at home with my cat. I never go out or do anything. My meds keep stuff in check to a point but I’m constantly sad and lonely. I wish I was still with my wife but that’s gone, I can’t imagine I’ll ever get someone else and see no point in life now. My self esteem and confidence is zero. I hate myself. What can I do? Right now I’m just existing and I hate life.

Crippling insecurity

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I have been trying to explain my feeling to my few family and friends but it seems they have grown annoyed and uninterested with my concerns but I am desperate. I need to know if what I am feeling is normal or unfair to my partner. My partner in my e... View more

I have been trying to explain my feeling to my few family and friends but it seems they have grown annoyed and uninterested with my concerns but I am desperate. I need to know if what I am feeling is normal or unfair to my partner. My partner in my eyes is amazing in every way possible, I adore the man but because I have put him on such a high pedestal I now feel inadequate and unworthy of him. I feel cripplingly insecure. Lately he has been distant with me, less affectionate and less attentive. I fear he is losing interest and so now I am tearing myself apart trying to figure out what is wrong with me. Did I push him away? Annoy him? Turn him off? Am I unattractive in his eye? Was he ever into me in the first place or was it all just convenient? God knows. His exes were all skinny girls and shorter than I am. He even said I am the first bigger girl he has dated. He has gone through a break up with his long term girlfriend months prior to me and was seeing others whilst talking to me. I fear I may even be a rebound. I do not know, this speculation is hurting my heart and head and I want someone to tell me the truth. He has been telling me a-lot of stories of him and his exes as well as the women he was “seeing” whilst talking to me. The stories have been making me feel sick to my core, I genuinely felt like I could vomit just from hearing him talk about it. It had made me feel disgusted by him. I may just be immature and insecure but if that is the case I just want to be told. Hearing it will definitely give me some closure and assure that I can find away to work around it.

1 of my stories

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Ok, so, I am continuously feeling lightheaded, I am continuously in pain. And I don't know what to do. I want to know that I am safe but I don't know how I can tell. Whilst feeling lightheaded, this happens even while I'm laying down. I have blackout... View more

Ok, so, I am continuously feeling lightheaded, I am continuously in pain. And I don't know what to do. I want to know that I am safe but I don't know how I can tell. Whilst feeling lightheaded, this happens even while I'm laying down. I have blackouts here and there, and I passed out in the middle of textiles class once My lightheadedness has been happening for a few days now and I don't know what to do about this. Could someone please give me advice?

What is happening?

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I just need some reassurance,Last August I was feeling very dizzy, lightheaded, my eyes were blurry, i was feeling like i was in a dream, i felt as if i was sick or was dying, honestly every symptom imaginable.. I had all these tests done; MRI, blood... View more

I just need some reassurance,Last August I was feeling very dizzy, lightheaded, my eyes were blurry, i was feeling like i was in a dream, i felt as if i was sick or was dying, honestly every symptom imaginable.. I had all these tests done; MRI, blood tests, heart tracking, etc. I've been to therapy too. I'm only 17 - everyone is telling me i am young and that this is a phase, as it's not like i have had it all my life. Forgot to mention, in August when this started i had the flu for around 2 weeks, i was feeling really sick, one morning i woke up at like 4:00am and went to my parents room, because i had a temperature and i felt sick, whilst i was standing in the dark bedroom i felt nauseous and all sweaty, i felt like i was going to collapse, then i realised everything felt more darker then normal i turned on their light and i couldn't see anything, everything was black! I My mum just said that i wasnt eating and drinking and that is what must've caused it, along with all the medication i was taking. But i happened another time too.. It was around 2:00pm as i was riding my dirt bike, i felt off and wasn't concentrating properly, i fell off at high speed after almost crashing into my sister (i hit the front brakes going downhill, in which i know i wasn't supposed to - i just panicked). Long story short, I broke my wrist, anyways when i fell off i had another blackout, which i was told it was also because it was 2:00pm and i hadn't eaten.. Then not long ago my heart started racing and it happened again. I am literally so scared now, but i've just been told every time this has happened i was because i hadn't eaten properly which is why now i try my best. Anyways, that isn't the point. The point is 2 days ago i got a cold, and i feel so bad, i think it is from my anxiety and my cold together.. But, the thing is. I feel like i can't think properly, i feel really out of it - like i don' feel real, nothing around me feel real. I feel like my head is tight and i am stuck in a dream, i don't feel right, i feel like I'm weak and everything i touch and do it isn't necessarily me that is doing it. So, i don't know if it is because of my cold that is making me feel off and my anxiety that is overexaggerating the feeling i am experiencing, but i feel like something is seriously wrong, what is happening to my brain, i am scared. It doesn't feel like my anxiety where it goes away when i occupy myself. No matter what i do i feel so out of it. Please tell me i am safe! 😞

How Do You Deal with a Nasty Person? TRIGGER WARNING

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Hi lovely people, Some of you here may have followed some of my earlier posts, but I have complex PTSD from years of domestic violence and abuse from my current husband. My anxiety levels are very high right now. Leaving my current living arrangement... View more

Hi lovely people, Some of you here may have followed some of my earlier posts, but I have complex PTSD from years of domestic violence and abuse from my current husband. My anxiety levels are very high right now. Leaving my current living arrangements isn’t an option at the moment or this time in my life. I am 56 and still need to work and somehow run a business with my narcissistic husband. Lately, he is becoming more and more vile and nasty with his words and taunts. He knows how damaged my self esteem and self worth is and he is the cause of this. I try to be civil and reasonable in living under the same roof but he’s getting more and more angry and hostile to the point of yelling at me to move out if I don’t like IT. He has yelled at me several times and lately in front of our sons, aged 27 and 29. HE knows that since giving up my apartment in 2022, I have nowhere to move out to. I don’t have any friends or family contacts or support. Not even a friend to talk to about this. I can’t keep burdening my sons with this. I am scared that he is pushing me to the brink once again. I have come very close to ending my life several times but I can’t do that to my children. I want to live and enjoy watching them grow and hopefully have their own children one day. He’s making me feel like I just want to end it all. Just abandon this life as it’s not ever going to be good. I will always have this trauma to haunt me forever. Thank you for being here and listening. Fiatlux 🙏🏼

I can't face anymore injustice. I'm a tragedy.

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1) I am 29 with no active payed work history. I've never wanted to be a apprentice, do a traineeship or anything in construction or the trades. I would struggle with Year 12 VCE and I couldn't be suited for University. I never wanted to work the typi... View more

1) I am 29 with no active payed work history. I've never wanted to be a apprentice, do a traineeship or anything in construction or the trades. I would struggle with Year 12 VCE and I couldn't be suited for University. I never wanted to work the typical industries like hospitality, sales, factory and retail. I've never known anything beyond the limited scope of conventional work and nothing of that seems suitable and desirable for me. 2) I never had a close relationship with my father. I've hated him ever since I was little, It started with him trying to make me follow his AFL football team, or he would be overbearing and verbal to my mother. He only understands himself, His selfish, arrogant, un caring, ignorant about many things. He can be devious and talk behind your back if he wants to, because if things are kept secret he won't have a guilty conscious. He prevents me from having valid feelings and problems and sais I'm on holidays because I'm un employed. He wants a house of peace and doesn't let me talk to my mother if his bothered about the volume of his T.V. His told my mother that I shouldn't be driving and that I don't want to work. All during high school my father was complaining to him about school feels and that I was taking days off and his friend was saying to pull me out of the only ideal private high school I could go to. I was bullied all during high school verbally and even physically degraded. I hated everyone in that school everyday for six years. Generally any issue that isn't his own problem, He just said why are you telling me for, or what does it have to do with me.

addicted to suicidal thoughts?

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I’m not sure how to word this, but I feel like I’m ‘addicted’ to having suicidal thoughts? Now, to preface this, I’m very satisfied with my life and acknowledge that I’m very privileged. I’m also not actually suicidal; it would realistically hurt too... View more

I’m not sure how to word this, but I feel like I’m ‘addicted’ to having suicidal thoughts? Now, to preface this, I’m very satisfied with my life and acknowledge that I’m very privileged. I’m also not actually suicidal; it would realistically hurt too much and I don’t want to traumatise my family. Since I was about 12 or 13 though I always thought about how much better it would be if I could die, and now it’s just constant to a point where I don’t stop thinking about killing myself unless I’m absorbed or distracted by doing something. Again, I don’t really want to die, but I can’t stop wishing I don’t have to wake up the next day. Being unconscious is probably the most peace I feel. It feels like as the days pass on, my doom is nearing, as dramatic as that sounds. The only reason I’ve been able to make it thus far is because I’m so privileged and because I’ve been blessed to have people who I can depend on and who still put up with me. But I know that I can’t depend on others forever, and of course I’m trying to be independent, but god am I so incompetent at everything I do and I don’t have a good personality either. I’m not kind, charismatic or optimistic; I’m terribly selfish, introverted and pessimistic, and I can’t even do ‘basic’ things other people can do like… hold a conversation. I don’t really go outside unless it’s necessary (eg grocery shopping, school) because I get really anxious about having attention on me, and it’s so sad because I want to spend time with my friends, but it’s a massive hurdle to overcome every time and never gets easier than the last. I have a similar-ish problem with my self harm too, where it’s just there. I’ve started it a while ago too, but nowadays, I don’t really do it because I’m super hurt or sad or anything (that would be a bit too often) but it’s just there and I’ll just do it if I feel like it. Of course I never hurt myself too much, so maybe that’s why, but it comes as easily as writing or drawing, and I can never bring myself to care that much about it like everyone else does. (Not that I am trying to justify it; I would be very concerned if anyone I knew, or anyone at all, was self-harming, no matter the degree. And it does make me really sad to accidentally see it online, even when I try to avoid it) So, I really don’t want to come off as insensitive, but I can’t stop wishing that I won’t have to wake up the next day.

Living in my car

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The owner of the house that I was renting for the last 4years, passed away they gave me 30 days to move out, I have done everything possible, I have put my name everywhere, nothing is available for a 69year old man, the only thing is to place me with... View more

The owner of the house that I was renting for the last 4years, passed away they gave me 30 days to move out, I have done everything possible, I have put my name everywhere, nothing is available for a 69year old man, the only thing is to place me with mentally unhealthy and like, people, I am now living in my car, like so many others, the alternatives are worst. So sad, depressed, covered in mosquito bites, can't take much more I get a ton of advice from everyone but no real help from anyone

people think of me as something i'm not and i hate it i dont know what to do replies: 2

Why do I feel / How do I stop feeling really unhappy when someone I don't really know unfriends me replies: 0

Family replies: 1

Hashimoto’s Single Parent replies: 0

I’m lonely and lost and close to giving up completely replies: 2

Crippling insecurity replies: 2

1 of my stories replies: 1

What is happening? replies: 1

How Do You Deal with a Nasty Person? *TRIGGER WARNING* replies: 8

I can't face anymore injustice. I'm a tragedy. replies: 6

addicted to suicidal thoughts? replies: 2

Living in my car replies: 1