Mental Health Conditions

I cannot cope with my puppy.

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I have autism and live alone. I got a dog 4 months ago to train as an assistance dog. I have had a weekly trainer but just can’t cope with the dog. He has allergies and I rent a house in the middle of a large farm. I have already spent a fortune on h... View more

I have autism and live alone. I got a dog 4 months ago to train as an assistance dog. I have had a weekly trainer but just can’t cope with the dog. He has allergies and I rent a house in the middle of a large farm. I have already spent a fortune on him but that’s ok. He causes me constant anxiety as everyone we go for a walk I have to bath him and dry him etc. every time he gets his paws wet I have to dry them with a hair dryer. He is prone to fungal infections. He won’t let me dry his paws and it upsets me so much. I spend at least one day a week frozen with anxiety and grief that I am not enough for him. I have also not done any of the things I love such as gardening as I am constantly attending to his needs. Exercising, training, playing and he wants constant attention. I am so depressed over the whole thing.i want to give him back to the breeder but have intense guilt and shame. My mental health has suffered a lot since getting him. Should I give him back?

Feeling hopeless and depressed

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Very low esteem and making decisions is a my worst nightmare been on medication for over 15 years , stopped taking it 6 months ago . started feeling really bad about a month ago and getting worse, worrying has increased into sleeping as well . Anyone... View more

Very low esteem and making decisions is a my worst nightmare been on medication for over 15 years , stopped taking it 6 months ago . started feeling really bad about a month ago and getting worse, worrying has increased into sleeping as well . Anyone experiencing similar after stopping their meds ?

Overwhelmed anxiety

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I’m 8 weeks post relationship separation due to DV, two kids, 17 and 13. I’ve moved out and 13 year old staying with me until everything is sorted, 17 year finds it hard to find time for me, feel like she resents me. Moved into new rental home on wee... View more

I’m 8 weeks post relationship separation due to DV, two kids, 17 and 13. I’ve moved out and 13 year old staying with me until everything is sorted, 17 year finds it hard to find time for me, feel like she resents me. Moved into new rental home on weekend and have become so overwhelmed, anxious, sick, tired. I was starting to cope before the move but now all the emotions have come back, I got to work but the body is present and I’m not, struggling. Saw go yesterday, prescribed anxiety meds and to see psychologist next week. Took first tablet today but by 9:30 think I’d experienced a panic attack and had to leave. Got dizzy, list all sensation in my arms, hands went sweaty and chest tightened. Haven’t been able to sleep or relax. Feel sick every day, so made I’ve been unable to gook meals for my son or I. Feel like I’ve ruined their lives by leaving, so much mum guilt. I just want this feeling to be gone and over. No one in my family has gone through a separation so they don’t know how I feel. How do I get past this stage?

I keep accidentally watching live streams

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I was watching shorts videos a little while ago and in one of them, this girl was looking at the camera I think, and I was watching the "shorts" video and reading the comments beside it. Sometimes when I watch shorts videos, if I get worried that I m... View more

I was watching shorts videos a little while ago and in one of them, this girl was looking at the camera I think, and I was watching the "shorts" video and reading the comments beside it. Sometimes when I watch shorts videos, if I get worried that I might actually be watching some type of live thing (which has happened before), I press pause of the video. I did this a few times with this video when I started getting suspicious and when I pressed pause, it paused, so I thought everything was fine. A little bit later, she turned to look at the screen again and looked shocked and then she looked at where the camera was on her laptop and then she raised her hand a certain way as if to say "wtf" so I pressed pause again and scrolled down. I had grey marking tape on my camera (my dad put it on there after I realized that people were watching me play Sims - I never even set my computer to do any of this, but I keep getting seen by people and sometimes vies versa on my laptop) so I originally thought that at least people probably won't see me if this happens again. I told my mum about it and she said, "well if you could see her, many other people would also have been able to see her and she'd be able to see them too, so it was probably someone else watching her that did something weird that she was reacting to." I tried to tell her that I was for some reason the only one who she could see, but she doesn't think so. Should I go back to the shorts video and apologize to her in the comments, or would that make it more weird? I'm scared to go back, but I would like to explain that I thought I was watching a shorts video and say sorry because I probably looked like a real weirdo.

Life straight after high school.

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I just recently finished high school over 6 months ago and ever since I’ve had this dreadful mindset where everything I do feels pointless now. High school was rough for me as I dealt with bullying so I always assumed after high school I’d feel amazi... View more

I just recently finished high school over 6 months ago and ever since I’ve had this dreadful mindset where everything I do feels pointless now. High school was rough for me as I dealt with bullying so I always assumed after high school I’d feel amazing because I would be away from it. But it’s been 6 months and I have no motivation, going to work feels more challenging than it used to and hanging out with friends feels like a chore. I start university next year which I worked really hard to get into but I’m scared that in the next 5 months this mindset will worsen and I’ll carry this sadness with me to university. I just wanted to see if anyone else felt like this after finishing high school and what they did to come out of this mindset? Have a beautiful day 🙂

Medically Terminated from work

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Hi, I had lung cancer surgery earlier this year. Recovery was going well and they got all the cancer. I returned to work and was working from home. My employer, who I have been with for over 30 years, decided I needed an independent medical assessmen... View more

Hi, I had lung cancer surgery earlier this year. Recovery was going well and they got all the cancer. I returned to work and was working from home. My employer, who I have been with for over 30 years, decided I needed an independent medical assessment. This ended up in me completing tasks, with an Exercise Physiologist, none of which were related to my job. I actually injured myself further. Now they have terminated me. I have suffered depression & anxiety for years, but this is next level. I'm finding it hard to function. I just want to hide from the world. I am totally devastated this has happened. Yes I have a lawyer and have lodged claims through WorkSafe. Its this hollow feeling of nothing, clearly I was just a number, they don't seem to care. I can do my job still. They decided I couldn't. I just needed to vent, so fed up with crying & panic attacks. Has anyone else been through this? I've lost my identity and right now I don't know who I am or even how to exist.Thanks for reading xx

Trauma memories

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Trauma memories can be a real freak, at least they have been in my life. Below a poem about one of those memories to help me process the traumatic times i experienced the onset of schizophrenia in childhood. Where as a child i was told to go back to ... View more

Trauma memories can be a real freak, at least they have been in my life. Below a poem about one of those memories to help me process the traumatic times i experienced the onset of schizophrenia in childhood. Where as a child i was told to go back to bed for i did not have to scared of the devil but i was terrified by hallucinations and the onset of the voices.i can hear in my head. Still Climbing!There was a staircase oncethat felt far too long and high,too steep into the darkfor my small feet to undertake.Each quivering step,showering overpowering dread—no child should have to face alonesuch intensity, inescapable fear,terror too large to understand.So as a child I climbed,not because I was strong,or because I felt brave,but because I had no choice—though my legs felt like jelly.And for a long time,deep within,I believed:there was somethingvery wrongwith me being me.Many years have passed.The stairs never vanished,but their meaning changed.They appear nowin the feelings I live,as memories of my past,waves recalling,coming and going—the tides of my moods.But the child who climbsis no longer aloneinside those moments.The years now meet him—bringing the love and carethat were missed.There is space now.I can breathewithout being afraidof not being heard.There is a pause now,ground to stand on,instead of it being wipedfrom beneath my feet.This is reliefbreaking through.For now I know—a quiet knowing that is real:nothing was wrongwith me as a frightened child.To live the indescribableis somethingto be horrified by.So when I am overwhelmed,it is not a command,not a truth,not a sentence to follow.It does not control me.It is a wave of recallthat risesand falls againwithout taking me with it.The stairs remainpart of my story.But they no longer decidehow it ends.Not because I was flawed—but because now, with compassion,I can stand beside that little boyand call him my own.

Abuse

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Do you feel abused by anyone? If so, why do you feel there's no escape, that you are permanently tied to that person? Have you sought help and how did that go?. R U OK? Remember, we are anonymous, you are safe here. I'd like you to chat here. To a la... View more

Do you feel abused by anyone? If so, why do you feel there's no escape, that you are permanently tied to that person? Have you sought help and how did that go?. R U OK? Remember, we are anonymous, you are safe here. I'd like you to chat here. To a lady stranger abused by her partner.RETURNING SHADOW There is a shadow of your life that follows you aroundLike every shadow here, they never make a soundAnd just as you want to leave that shadow makes you stayThen you return to life, just like any other day There are many that left their shadow behindTo seek freedom of love and life of a different kindTo be so bold and not be told, to be treated as a woman grownTo think for yourself, and make choices of your own Only then will your shadow relax and reappearWith thumbs up and no longer reason for any fearA sign will arrive that you fought for all the rights you should have hadSmiles from your shadow and no longer trace of feeling sad You'll blossom into that girl you used to beThe one that twirled her dress as if forever freeAnd the love will come to you as it does with effort moreJust like it does from the ocean to the shore As you grow older and watch your children danceYou'll smile away because- you fought for a second chanceAnd as you seek the sun that shadow reappearsTo give you that elusive smile and a thousand fewer tears.... TonyWK

I'm so weak.

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My childhood abuser is my mother. she physically abuse me which was fair punishments, But being a single parent, I think she definitely had moments where she took it too far. I was misdiagnosed with IBS at a young age, Was just nerve damage from me n... View more

My childhood abuser is my mother. she physically abuse me which was fair punishments, But being a single parent, I think she definitely had moments where she took it too far. I was misdiagnosed with IBS at a young age, Was just nerve damage from me not using the toilet, We'd just moved from NSW escaping our "Abusive" "dad" and science partially backs up some kids don't adapt well to new changes, I happen to be one of them. You can probably assume where this is going, It was punishment I wouldn't wish upon the worst, The sort of vile punishment you only hear in barbaric threats or see in uncensored movies. My abuser is still alive, They've actually managed to spin the narrative around, Now she's seen as the perfect mother. She's not a bad person though, And she knows what she did was terrible and it eats away at her morality, She's apologized to me for it but I just quickly excepted because the nature of the abuse is so disgusting, I really do try to repress it.My Mother has liver problems now, Doctors gave her 2 years left to live. It shouldn't come as a surprise but after the abuse, I stopped being light handed, I guess in every way apart from physically, I'd become an emotional abuser which is still no better... I just wish I was strong like everyone else here, No therapy, No reporting... Or else everyone will know what happened to me.

Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm Section

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Hi there, Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm section of the Beyond Blue Forums. Life gets pretty hard sometimes, and many people here on the Forums have had times where they have thought about harming themselves or ending their life. This can be a ... View more

Hi there, Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm section of the Beyond Blue Forums. Life gets pretty hard sometimes, and many people here on the Forums have had times where they have thought about harming themselves or ending their life. This can be a deeply distressing experience, and this section is here to support members who have had these experiences. This section is not a crisis support service. If you are in crisis or need immediate help, assistance is not available via these Forums. Please call: Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 (24/7) Lifeline on 13 11 14 (24/7) If it is an emergency, contact emergency services on 000. This is a place to share where you are at, seek ideas for support and know that you are not alone. We are here to create a safe environment for everyone. Please do not provide any details about any plans/ideas that you may have had to hurt yourself, and importantly, help us to understand if you are safe by letting us know in the post. For some people this section might be difficult to read – if it is not helping how you feel, then please consider moving to another section. This section, like the rest of the Forums, is closely monitored and all posts are reviewed by moderators before publication. Moderators will also ensure that anyone needing follow up will be provided with information about how to access further support. If after a period of time you no longer wish others to engage in the discussion you have started, please use the 'Report Post' button and request the discussion be locked to prevent any further replies. Thank you for being here, we're glad you're here. Treat yourself gently as you read through this section. Beyond Blue

guilty

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i have a friend that introduced me to their gf with a lie. Its been a day and i had fun talking with their gf. I spent the day digging my own hole building on the lie because i feel like the consequences if i tell the truth will be worse. I called my... View more

i have a friend that introduced me to their gf with a lie. Its been a day and i had fun talking with their gf. I spent the day digging my own hole building on the lie because i feel like the consequences if i tell the truth will be worse. I called my friend a few hours ago. I told them that i felt like i was digging a hole. They said i was and that if the lie was ever found out they will both block me and they will say they didn't know. I feel betrayed. I know i am not their partner and they will put their partner first. But i am a terrible liar and i feel so guilty. when they hung up it was almost instantly i stopped crying. Like i needed an audience to feel something. That it was all fake, like an act for attention. I felt like a few weeks ago i started getting better, maybe even happier. this incident felt like i got set back to my lowest point. That friend is the only friend that i feel comfortable sharing everything with. I feel tired and numb i feel so numb that its a miracle that i feel betrayed. I spent so long previously trying to feel something that i gave up after the pain was never enough to fill the gaps. i don't know what to do or what i can do. I just felt the need to vent. Im sorry for posting again.

How do I get over an ex

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I have an ex, she has bpd and bipolar and a few other disorders. But she decided one day just to get up and leave. She's gone back to her ex and slept with the guy she told me not to worry about. She let me know all of that. But I was so in love with... View more

I have an ex, she has bpd and bipolar and a few other disorders. But she decided one day just to get up and leave. She's gone back to her ex and slept with the guy she told me not to worry about. She let me know all of that. But I was so in love with her I ruined all of my friendships so now i''m stuck with no one and nothing left. I just feel like the easiest thing rn is just to end it. Because I genuinely dont think i can continue like this

I cannot cope with my puppy. replies: 1

Feeling hopeless and depressed replies: 1

Overwhelmed anxiety replies: 2

I keep accidentally watching live streams replies: 0

Life straight after high school. replies: 0

Medically Terminated from work replies: 1

Trauma memories replies: 3

Abuse replies: 6

I'm so weak. replies: 2

Welcome to the Suicide and Self-Harm Section replies: 0

guilty replies: 1

How do I get over an ex replies: 1