Star student to miserable failure
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Hi, call me Aira. I'm a Year 12 IB student and I'm failing everything. I was always pretty good at school. I did well with zero effort. I hear about other students who used to do well without trying too, but struggled later because they never learned... View more
Hi, call me Aira. I'm a Year 12 IB student and I'm failing everything. I was always pretty good at school. I did well with zero effort. I hear about other students who used to do well without trying too, but struggled later because they never learned study techniques. That's not me. In Year 10 I was moved to an advanced class, and realising things were only going to get harder from there, I spent the year figuring out study techniques that worked for me. It went well. I even ended up doing better than many of my classmates who had been in the advanced program far longer than me. When I got to Year 11, it didn't take me long to be the best student in many of my classes. I'm not saying all this to brag. I'm mentioning this because the difference between me back then and me now is almost comical. By the time Year 11 was over, I just gave up on everything. Reading my diary, it seems like my attitude at the time was "this is a long break, I'll just enjoy it for now and get to my homework later." Then something happened (it wasn't serious, but I don't want to say), and I got really upset and just did nothing. It was pretty out-of-character for me since, in terms of my mood, Year 10 was the worst year for me and I still did pretty well. So I can't recall why I just gave up. When Year 12 started, I struggled in class since I did none of the homework. That stressed me out a lot and my mental health has been the worst this year than it has ever been. I started crying in my classes a lot and sort of just stopped doing any work. I stopped doing anything really, other than going to school and coming back home. I was talking to my teachers, the coordinator, and to a counsellor at school, but I didn't feel like any of it was helping. So after months of this, I sent the coordinator a desperate email about how I wasn't going to graduate at this rate, and I managed to get a different timetable. Instead of finishing school this year, I'm meant to complete 2 subjects this year, and the other 4 next year. It was relieving for a few weeks, but I was feeling so awful I couldn't get anything done anyways. If I can't even handle 2 subjects, how am I meant to handle 4 next year? I think back to who I was a year or two ago and she feels like a different person entirely. Mentally, I'm actually doing pretty well right now. I think enough happened to me to where bad things don't surprise me anymore. But it doesn't make much of a difference if that isn't showing in my grades.