Hi Mezza0145
My heart goes out to you regarding the loss of your brother, the challenges you've faced and the challenges you still face up to today. So much to manage for one person. I'm so glad you came here, to share how you feel.
Life is definitely not easy for those who can sense so deeply and so easily. While being sensitive can offer many empowering abilities, there are times where being sensitive can feel more like a curse than anything else. I think possibly the most important thing to take into account is 'No one has ever shown me how to manage my ability to sense so easily'. And while in some families there can be 'The black sheep of the family' or 'The odd one out', I'm often inclined to say 'Ahh, so you're the sensitive of the family. The only one with the ability to sense so deeply and so easily'. When this is the case, you can be almost guaranteed that the other members of the family have been taught or have learned to how to ignore what they're feeling or sensing, suppress it, distract themselves from such feelings, drink those feelings away or something else along those lines. The one who doesn't ignore or can't ignore, doesn't or can't suppress, doesn't or can't distract themself can suffer the most at times without strategies for managing their ability to feel.
Being encouraged to express what we're feeling or how we're feeling a certain challenge is so important when it comes to making better sense of the challenge/s we face. For example 'How do I define this particular energy in motion (emotion) I can sense moving or stuck within me? What does this energy feel like? How does it interact with my nervous system? What would I call it if I could give it a name or a label? Is it heartbreak, fear, self doubt or something else?'. So many questions on the quest for a greater sense of self understanding and an understanding of the ability to feel so deeply and so easily. As a gal who's a real feeler, I've found it pays to connect with other feelers. This way, when we say 'I feel heartbreak', someone can validate that feeling by saying 'I feel it too', instead of 'You're being dramatic' or 'You just need to get over it and get on with life' and stuff like that. ❤️
