I'm completely lost in life

[Chris D]

I don't know where to go or what to say or what to do anymore, i'm completely lost. I can't take it anymore, i have a family member who is going in for an operation next wk and so she will need looking after, so how am i meant to fill the requirements i have with centrelink and try and stay well enough to look for work and look after this family member, i've already got enough going on in my head.

I feel like bursting out into tears, i can't take it i'm lost at what to do next. Got no motivation, no drive anymore absolutely pathetic. All i want is a person to listen to me and to give me a hug and put their hand on my back to tell me it's going to be ok.

I feel so alone, so isolated. Even today at a group that i go to i felt all day i was ready to burst into tears. Just want to hit my life away because it's no life at all.I need company but i feel no one wants me or wants to hear from me, it's like they have no time for me feel like a piece of trash lying in the gutter just deteriorating away in the rain.

I just want to cry but the tears won't come, i can feel they are there but not in a position to be let out.

Can anyone provide company and a hug for me please, i really need it please.

Kind Regards

Chris

[Jo3]

Hi Chris,

I'm sorry I haven't spoken to you for a while.

It's good to see that your mum's operation went well.  I think it will be good for you to go into the facility.  you will get so much help.  Bad luck about the job, but do you know what - just keep applying because soon I am sure you will get a job.  I know how disappointed it is in not getting a job.  It took me a while and I was upset each time, but maybe if you can get into this facility things will improve.

Just a thought - have you had someone look at your resume?  When I was looking for work I had my psych look at my resume and we went over a few things about job interviews.  Just a thought??

Chris, how are things going with your girlfriend?

Pls try and stay positive; things always work out in the end.

Take care my friend

Jo

[Guest_3712]

Hey Chris ,

I am 52, been out of work for 5 years and applied for over 30 jobs and didn't get to interview stage.

three weeks ago I got a job! so if I can do it you can- change your mantra from useless and hopeless to  skilled and experienced .

Good luck

be kind to yourself

Stressless

[Neil_1]

Hi Chris

I’m so pleased that all is going well with your Mum.  That must be a huge relief to you.

 Chris, that’s brilliant that you were selected for an interview.  The work environment these days is really hard and difficult and to even crack getting an interview says a lot about you.  That means you beat so many others who weren’t considered worthy for interview.

But yes, the hard part is always the interview aftermath.  I’m now at the stage where I can accept not being chosen … it’s actually quite easy.  I’ve had too many disappointments in the past – and the only piece of advice Chris with regard to this I can give with regard to the interview aftermath (and this is no matter how well you think you went at it) is to think, “ok, that’s done … I think I went ok, but I know there’ll be someone better and they’ll no doubt get the job – as long as I receive ‘ok’ feedback from them with regard to (a) my application and (b) that I interviewed well, then that’ll be fine”.  If you think this and you miss out, then it does help, believe me.  That way you don’t get your hopes up. 

However if they give you the news that you got the job, then whooooo hoooo, jump as high as you can in the air (I hope your ceilings aren’t low) and giddy up, cause you won the job”.

Chris, you’ve found one job and succeeded getting an interview.  I know there’ll be more jobs out there that you can apply for.  And please do so.

Get back to us Chris, because you’re important to all of us.  Please.

Kind regards

Neil

[Chris D]

Hi Jo and All,

To answer your question Jo, my gf and i have seperated she cut off all communication with me.

This next bit is really hard for me to post but yesterday (Friday) i made the decision that i will be checking myself into the facility i have been talking about, within the next couple of wks.

I'm a lost cause, feel have lost everything and no more reason to live. I have no more hope or faith.

I don't deserve any of you, as i can't even post on any of your own threads. Yes, i know i'm slack.

[Chris D]

Hi All,

To all of you, I am so sorry that i haven't been able to post on any of your threads, there has been alot going on for me in my life that i am trying to cope with as best as possible.

My head at the moment is ready to explode, it can't take in any more information.

I so sorry.

Chris

[Jo3]

Hey Chris,

Don't apologise for not replying to our posts.  

Chris, I am so sorry you and your girlfriend have separated.  That is really sad.

I am glad to see that you are going to go into a facility.  Not sure if it's a hospital or not - but you will be cared for and supported.  You will be okay Chris, I have faith in you.

You have a life to live Chris, you will get through this and we will all be here for you.

Do you know how long you will be away for?  Take care Chris, and I am thinking of you

Jo

[Mares73]

Dear Chris i am sorry  2 here you are experiencing pain & difficulties with the  issues you are dealing with in your life. Feeling rejected about the job and the breakup with your girlfriend must have contributed to your low self esteem & made you feel sad, disappointed and alone. I know it maynot feel like it now-but it is true that if you were picked for an interview it shows you were considered above the many others who applied for the job. I have every faith that you will get a job-and this could be a "blessing in disguise" so to speak as it means you are available to go into the facility asap. As Jo asked-what type of facility is it? I hope you go in very soon so you can have a rest & get some support to deal with the issues in your life that cause you stress and worry. If you are able it would be great to hear from you soon. Take care Chris- many of us are thinking of you. Love Mares xxx

[Chris D]

Hi Jo and Mares,
The facility is a hospital bout 90 min away. Not sure how long will b there for, need to get referral from gp 1st and paperwork. Mares im on the same time as u. Im at the end of the road for me. May go in not this coming wk but the wk after. At the lowest of all lows at moment.
Chris

[Neil_1]

Hi Chris

My friend, all you need to concentrate right now is on YOU.  100% ... please please don't be thinking about needing to post to any of the other threads on here.  Please don't do that, because that will only add to your stress.

This upcoming visit to the hospital facility does sound like the best thing to happen.  In there you'll be looked after and given all the support and help you need right now.  That is such a big positive Chris.  Take your time there and try not to worry about anything external ... issues that you can't control ... stressing over those is just laced with all sort of bad.  Because you worry and stress about it, but at the end of the day, your worry and stress makes you worse, but it doesn't change the situation.

So sounds like it won't be this week, but will be the following week ... around early March.  Chris until that time, please do everything necessary to look after yourself - get to your GP for the referral and I hope they can help you with the paperwork.  And please just lay low this coming week ... listen to your favourite music or try and do some of the things that you enjoy ... hobbies or interests to help you get through this week.

You've got so much support on here for you Chris ... and all all of us want is for you to get better.

Take care

Neil

[Chris D]

Hi Neil and All,

I see my gp tomorrow to get the referral and explain to him what is going to happen and alo what i need from him and also a few other people and services.

You are right Neil in saying that it will be early march, hopefully 1st wk in march, if everything comes together regarding paper work.

I am going to miss you all when i go. I know i can feel it and it's the type of person i am. In particular you Jo3 you and i seem to be supporting eachother very well but this is best for me and for everyone in my life, including all of you here at BB.

You all mean alot to me, there are no words to describe how i feel to all of you here at BB. You have supported me through my good and bad times.

I will be posting during the week but i wanted to get that out at the moment.

Chris