Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[Guest_4643]

Not at my GP Clinic, I've tried a few times.

Also the Psychologist ended up keeping the appointment tomorrow. Ugh nothing is easy for me and nothing makes sense

[Guest_1643]

that's too bad. I thought that you were able to get in but had thought it might look funny to be seeing one on one day and then another on anothr day, so you cancelled the appointmnt?

[Guest_4643]

No Sleepy, they cancelled the appointments, I never cancelled anything

[Guest_1643]

hey tayla sorry i haven't been on ur thread for a long time

I cheecked and you wrote about somone ud heard of from wellways who is also one of the directors ... but there was som issus with the appointments. I'm not sure if you saw him in the end?

was he not good? i remmebered you booked in and were excited about seeing that person who sounded good, but that was ages ago. i'm sorry i haven't been here much and i can't follow things in such detail

[Cee123]

Hi mb20lover,

I can relate to what you're going through. I more or less got the cold shoulder from my doctor today. Although I did get some medication and I took one tonight. I just felt as though he couldn't be bothered with me.

[Guest_4643]

Sleepy I have mentioned Wellways not being helpful before and don't wish to talk about it as it's triggering.

Cee, sorry to hear.

Bye for now all.

[Guest_1643]

ok

[Jstar49]

Hugs

[Guest_1643]

hugs back !

[Guest_4643]

I'm feeling horrible right now.

I went on an eHeadspace peer led chat. I was talking and then some participant sent me rude emojis saying I should k**l myself, etc. They got banned but came back as another user and before that they were abusing people who were overweight saying they should d** etc. It was said right after I said something and they said it was a misunderstanding, no it wasn't.

I'm already feeling awful and SI and that happens. I've had that said to me many times and been bullied my whole life in person and online.

Thank you to those people who supportive towards me here and know better not to say that stuff to anyone. It's really tipped me over the edge and I feel really SI.

That stuff is never ok.