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Originally posted by: rebekah on 30 December 2012

basally Ive been bullied my whole life my parents complain that im never happy but when ever they speak to me i start crying my mum doesn't understand my life she found out i harm myself and she keeps making stuiped comments like ''you should focus on work in class instead of harming'' or ''you stuiped bitch you think your so cool because you harm'' i can't take school any more i cant that my parents its just to much i just want to barry my self in a hole . even at school i get called emo and attention seekers half the time from a girl who harms her self and she told me she does it for attention so why call me an attention seeker half the time when people yell about my teachers here do go so good after that.

[ModeratorA]

Hey school sounds pretty tough at the moment with heaps going on. It can really effect how you feel when things happen to your friend that you have no control over or you think isn't fair. Sometimes it is good to step back form that stuff even if it seems really unfair, especially if you are getting so upset and your feelings are so intense that you want to hurt yourself.

It would be great if you could give the blades to somebody not to hide but to get rid of. Best not to keep that stuff around if you get urges to harm yourself with them.

Is there any teacher or adult at school you feel ok about letting them know how you are going? Although it may not always feel like it  , there is usually somebody at school that you can connect with if you be brave and give it a go.

Let us know how you are going

the BB moderators

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i did give the blades to my friend who lost them got new one's i relapsed after weeks of horrible urges and suicidal thoughts.if i speak to teachers at school they will sent you to the social worker. ive been talking to some of the guys that im with when i am upset.i recently started sitting in a bush i feel safe in it. ive been getting really angry with my English teacher,she wont let me draw in my book during class becasue i cant stand watching the movie that everyone loves and i am to hy to speak to any one during the movie.she told me to go wash my hand again i got  so mad i stomped down the stairs washed my hands and stood there trying not to cut for ten mintures.i feel like  everyone ignores me unless they want to talk about being depressed or  cutting.my friend brooke saw my cuts when they full healed by not gone away by this point i was wearing short sleeves he yelled out why do you cut twice i never answered him. luckliy my teacher was playing music and teaching cheerleaders they dance 

[Vegetarian Marshmallow]

Haha, sitting in a bush sounds fun; I'll have to try that one.

As far as only having people talk to you about cutting or depression.. Do people know what your interests are?  Do you talk to them about your interests?  Apparently you like drawing.  That gives you an easy foot in the door - just draw a picture of someone and show it to them.  People love it when you make something dedicated to them.

Are you supposed to be watching this film for comprehension or to write an essay on it or something?

That was kind of dumb of your friend to yell about cutting in front of other people.  Tell him.. not to do that.

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i dont really sit in brushes any more

they kinda know my intersts and we kinda talkabout it.

the film was a cartoon and it was for fun not for work

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Long time no see