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Originally posted by: rebekah on 30 December 2012

basally Ive been bullied my whole life my parents complain that im never happy but when ever they speak to me i start crying my mum doesn't understand my life she found out i harm myself and she keeps making stuiped comments like ''you should focus on work in class instead of harming'' or ''you stuiped bitch you think your so cool because you harm'' i can't take school any more i cant that my parents its just to much i just want to barry my self in a hole . even at school i get called emo and attention seekers half the time from a girl who harms her self and she told me she does it for attention so why call me an attention seeker half the time when people yell about my teachers here do go so good after that.

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Originally posted by: rebekah on 14 March 2013

Basically I did it because cause I wanted to die but mainly its been building up plus my best friend has been trying to kill her self all week it really makes me worry

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Originally posted by: AnonAnon on 14 March 2013

dear Rebekah, is there anyone you can talk to in person? I think you've been made aware of a Headspace centre in earlier postings. As Geoff had also enquired, what would you think of going to visit a friendly person there who will listen and try to help you? Your parents don't need to know. "I want to die" - now, how many people have yearned for that...? Death may seem like an easy thing to do to end the suffering. But if you think about it... How many others suffer? (Answer is "everyone). They still live on and find ways to cherish the gift of life. Suffering, being in pain, feeling turmoil, feeling worry - all are normal experiences and "everyone" is subjected to them. Then there's also nice feelings, too. But you'll need to stay alive for awesome things! Maybe you and your best friend could visit a Headspace centre together? It's always nice to have company. Do you think it would be a good idea for your friend to talk to someone, too? Let us know how you go, best wishes

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Originally posted by: Neil on 14 March 2013

Rebekah, You have really got to please get some professional help with this. What you've just written has really concerned me. Please don't be wanting to do what you wrote. Do you have a GP that you can go to talk too? Or the counsellor?? I'm also very concerned about your friend. If you ever get to that feeling of breaking point again, please please pick up the telephone and call Lifeline 13 11 14 ... it's more important to do that than do anything else at that stage if you're feeling like self harming and beyond. Please hang in there Rebekah, and please KNOW that you've got so much support, love and caring by the people who are on this site. Kind regards, Neil

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Originally posted by: geoff on 15 March 2013

dear Rebekah OK luv thanks for getting back to us. Are you on a par with your girlfriend or does she look up to you for support or guidance. Remember when I said before that when you fall over doing roller skating you pick yourself up and then you may fall over again and this goes on until you feel confident that you won't fall over, and initially I was referring to depression, but this also applies to hurting yourself. It's not an easy task, we all know this, but please take care. Love Geoff. x

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Originally posted by: rebekah on 19 March 2013

hey i dont know what happened for a while i was haing theres sucidal thoughs but like after weeks they decied to go away and i cracke dup and had so much engery and now i have mor econfidence and im happy and that im not stress about school as much and that i have not self harmed since last time i said because the socal worker gave my friend who does it a talking to so im trying not to

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Originally posted by: AnonAnon on 20 March 2013

Rebekah, have you ever told anyone about your changes in mood? Perhaps you could visit your GP and tell him/her what you have just told us. It's a bit odd, don't you think, that the suicidal feelings and low mood have suddenly changed into a humorous one? Please do seek a professional view so that they can help you feel more consistently better 🙂 Best wishes

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Originally posted by: rebekah on 22 March 2013

i think about it but its not a good time for me right now long story short i wouldnt of made in monday if my friends werent there

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Originally posted by: rebekah on 23 March 2013

im fine if you wanted to know

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Originally posted by: beyondblue team on 23 March 2013

Hi Rebekah, Thanks for keeping in touch with us all on the Bulletin Board to let us know how you are getting on. Like others who have posted, we are really concerned to hear how hard things are for you right now, and that your self harming and thoughts of suicide are getting worse. After everything you've been through, we can understand why you are feeling so bad. You are also not alone- did you know that about one in four young people experience some type of mental health issue? With depression, it can sometimes feel like things won't ever get better, and that hurting yourself (or killing yourself) is the only way to escape. Please know that many people -including lots of the people on this forum- have been through this kind of experience, but come through it: things won't always be as hard as they are right now. That said, it also sounds too much for anyone to try to deal with alone... so please do let people know what is happening for you so that they can give you the right support. You've mentioned seeing a few different counsellors- have you let them know about the self-harm and suicide thoughts this week? In between appointments, know that you can also call the Kids Help Line on 1800 55 1800, or Lifeline on 13 11 14. You can ring them any time of the day or night, for free, even from a mobile phone. When you call, caring staff can talk with you about how you are feeling and help you make a plan to keep yourself safe until the urge to hurt yourself passes. Please do call them if you need to, and please do keep in touch with us all too. With best wishes beyondblue team

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Originally posted by: rebekah on 23 March 2013

thanks