Three things I am incredibly grateful for :
1. Beginning to learn that my toxic ex partner’s behaviour was a reflection of them. And I am slowly but surely learning how to not hold detest or anger anymore. The ways, in which they treated me were all a true reflection on who he is/was as a human being. Beginning to realise it was really was a lesson and a blessing in disguise that we did not work out together. I want someone who I grow and flourish with. And I don’t think, honestly I could have ever done that with someone like him. Grateful for videos, online forums (LIKE THIS ONE) and articles but also books that share insight on what narcissistic abuse looks like and how to overcome it. A narcissist is a very insecure and depressed individual. And in order for a narcissist to feel ‘worthy of’ or ‘loved’ they need to act in a fake manner in order to lure in and attract their empathic and usually incredible victims. The thing you’ve got to understand is narcissists never EVER chase someone who is ‘dull’ or even ‘boring’ for that matter. They chase intelligent, creative, insightful, talented and thoughtful individuals.
2. I may have a good willpower to when it comes to not interacting with toxic individuals but my willpower, sometimes to sweet things like chocolate is very small. I love chocolate and I’m grateful for it because sometimes it’S good to just eat some and feel good about your world. Milk is genuinely my favourite flavour, plain milk.
3. Grateful for the fact that I am studying at the moment. And that I have the opportunity to study. To think about the fact that I have even made to a course shocks me. If you told me three years that I would graduate secondary school and eventually end up going to university I would have laughed and not at all believed you. Even though I made a promise to myself when I was in grade prep of primary school that I was going to graduate no matter how much it took for me to do so. And I did it!!
All the best, lots of love,
PF xxx
