Unable to stop crying
Jhc welcome to the forum.
sudden break up at any age is so stressful and heartbreaking.
As you wrote you thought you would grow older together.
I think the not knowing what went wrong makes it hard for closure as you keep thinking what caused the breakup and could it have been stopped.
You are still in shock and need time and lots of tender loving care to help you.
50 is still young. Crying can help you process all the pain you are feeling. Do you feel the crying is helping you in any way?
Thanks for your honesty in sharing your story.
After reading your post and can so relate to you.I lost my ex wife that i thought i would be forever.I lost her because she needed sex and i couldnt give that to her became impotent.She went and found someone who could satisfi her which happened to be my best friend.I was really in a mess crying all the time,i really struggled with day to day life.
After a few years of being game enough to talk to people and girls i met someone so amazing,we had the best friendship sharing our highs and lows of life.She was the best thing to happened to me but unfortunately my anxiety really got bad and i thought i was going to lose her friendship and because of this i actually did.I still cry for her every day as well as my narriage.I trying to keep busy and keep my mine off things,trying to move on with my life but is hard.
You are an amazing person and there will be someone special out there for you that will treat you so good and it will happen when you least expect it to.
Jhc said: I'm at home by myself just thinking the same stuff over and over, questioning why.
I've recently gone through a break up too and still trying to process it. The whole going over it in your head is honestly the worst. For the first week I had to tell myself out loud to just "shut up!". I couldn't stand it. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Crying doesn't seem to help, but I guess it has a purpose. I know my GP said you've got to let it all out. Don't try and hold it in. If you want to keep talking and sharing, please do. I know how much I needed to do that when it was so raw and painful. My thoughts are with you, Katy
If you browse the threads you will see many are about breakups and does not matter how old you are, if the breakup was a surprise or was a joint decision, breakups are very hard.
I think the best thing is to take it slowly, and be kind to yourself. It takes time and you need to grieve like you would grieve any loss and there is no right way do what feels right.
Keep writing here if it helps as you can see there are people here who are supportive .
Brings me to tears as well reading your posts. I had 25 years with a woman I expected to die with, still holding hands. I too am the same age and just like both of you feel that it is a steep hill I must climb to start again, or wondering if I can even start again. Nightclubs are no my scene anymore and internet sites for meeting people are just a joke, truly. Kathy is right when she says you must not think about it, make a mantra for yourself, "I love faulty Towers" or "Game of Thrones is good" anything to take your mind away from the dark thoughts you don't need. There are so many here who have broken up with partners, that I can only conclude there must be thousands out there.