UPDATED: I just feel alone and lost in a new world I don't like

[Zetta]

Hi everyone, I just want to introduce myself. I went to the Dr today and he prescribed me my medication. I'll be starting the journey to a more positive outlook soon. I just feel soo lost and confused. My husband and I have had a pretty hard week this week as I told him something that changed everything for us. A secret I held for a long time. And he's not talking to me much. I just feel alone and lost in a new world I don't like. It's just all soo confusing. 

[blondguy]

Hi Zetta and welcome to the forums...Paul here..

Thankyou Zetta for having the courage to post..it does take strength..Beyond Blue is a very secure and caring site that you can feel comfortable replying on if you wish of course

First things first Zetta....Well done for actually healing yourself by getting to your doc!

Medication...okay...thats another step forward in your healing process too

Lost and Confused.....Very very common and you have come to the right place Zetta

I am sad that you and your husband have had a hard week....

You have also done well in communicating what you have held for such a long time....That is also a positive step

You are not alone Zetta...there are wonderful and caring people on this forum that can be there for you..

I am sorry that he is not 'talking to you' much....Just a guess but maybe he cant cope as well as you have addressed the issue at hand...?

It is confusing and mentally exhausting Zetta....Please be gentle to yourself now...From what you have mentioned you have made some very good progress in healing your 1) Relationship and especially 2) Yourself 🙂

We are here if you need us..on any matter if you wish to do so

Thankyou again for posting

Paul

[geoff]

dear Zetta, a very warm welcome to you, and we all know that it's never easy to come to a site and then post exactly how you
feel and what you are struggling from.
I'm sure most of us have secrets that we don't want our partner/spouse to know about, even though we are still very close,
so should be blame ourselves for doing so, well that doesn't really matter whether you believe it's right or wrong, but I
suppose if it's something that you feel guilty over, then you have to make a decision that will strengthen and be accepted
in telling your spouse, because this particular secret maybe what is blocking a happy relationship.
If there is love between the both of you, then it can be worked out, and remember that the majority of marriages always have
there us and downs and the time before you both make up maybe hard and difficult to sort out, but it can be done.
My worry is how long before you decided to visit your doctor before a diagnosis could be made, but am pleased that you have.
Your journey maybe up and down but please let us ride it with you. Geoff. x

[Zetta]

Thank you for your kind words of encouragement! It makes me feel soo much better in knowing that I'm not the only one who struggles with it. It's just hard most days as I'm a homeschooling mum who doesn't get much time for herself anymore. I only started this year and I don't want to give it up yet. My Husband is not very supportive at this stage because of what happened last week. And all I want is for him to hug me and cuddle me at the end of the day and he doesn't want to be close to me now. I don't have much of an support network as Mum and Dad is in Melbourne along with my little brother and my sister is in Brisbane. I need my Husband soo much now and it just feels like he's not here for me. I feel guilty to ask him to be there for me as he is battling his own thoughts and emotions. I just need a hug from my mum.  

[blondguy]

Hi Zetta

I am sorry that you hubby is not being as supportive as he should be right now..especially even for a simple hug.

I have read your post again Zetta....I feel by you summoning the strength to tell your husband about this matter shows you care about your marriage and him. To this point you have done everything you have. I do hope you find peace in knowing that. His inability to cope is sad...however that is his problem..

You can only do so much Zetta

 Here for you

Paul

[Zetta]

Thank you Paul it's just nice to have a place to talk to other people who understand what i'm feeling and to support me. 

[blondguy]

No worries Zetta

The welcome mat is out...You have a lot to offer us as well

I hope your sleep was good to you

Paul

[Zetta]

My sleep is really disruptive since I started on my medication Paul so trying to get as much as possible at the moment. 

[blondguy]

Morning Zetta!

Sleep quality can be a real pain...I agree. I was put on AD's back in '95 and they helped me help myself so much.

The sleep does come back..which is a bonus to know..

I hope your day is good to you Zetta 🙂

Paul

[Zetta]

Just an update on how i'm going so far. It's been a long week and i'm coming to terms with being on AD's. I'm currently in a coffee shop having a coffe by myself and just watching people in general. It's one of my favourite things to do. I have no kids with me this morning and hubby is at work. I'm feeling good even though i'm still not sleeping well but most of the side affects are wearing off now. I think it's going to be a good day today.