Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

and today I hate myself and want to climb in the bin. not really ok right now

[OceanWhispers]

Not very helpful but I feel the same and would join you in the bin. Sending huge hugs xx

[iamanxiety]

hey Katy,

what's going on. anything happen to make you feel like this or just one if those nights that things just way on you.

I'll keep checking the forum for your reply

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Thanks guys. Guess i"m still on the rollercoaster. I think i'm going ok and next minute we're in freefall. Sigh...

[iamanxiety]

it's tough when your doing well then suddenly go backwards. I guess I'm the same ,deppresion and anxiety are always lurking but as I get better it takes more for them to take over and I deal with them better .

what are you filling most of your days with. is there anything to break up the roller coaster

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

On rubbish days I lack the motivation to do much at all, which isn't helping. I've been pushing myself to go to yoga twice a week, and I enjoy it while I'm there. But apart from that it's a slog to put one foot in front the other. I'm sure doing nothing isn't helpful either.

Always happy to hear you are keeping up momentum though. It makes me feel hopeful!

[iamanxiety]

I feel you. i dont want to do anything or see anyone but I know this will slow recovery and make things worse.

I need to force myself out and am trying to create a routine. it does help but it's tought to do.

I still get bad morning anxiety which makes it hard to start the day.

hope you can push through

Andrew

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hey Andrew

Thanks for your support, again 🙂 You're absolutely right. We just have to keep forcing ourselves to do what we need to do, when we're able of course.

I wonder if you could try a 5 minute morning meditation?

Katy

[iamanxiety]

Hi Katy,

that's a good idea but I think my mind is racing to much to calm it down ,I guess that's what the meditation is for lol. I will probably need to try it later in the day to get good at it first. I found getting up straight away ,shower and shave then run errands usually works. if I stay home and mope it can go for hours .

I guess physical activity,structure and distraction work, sometimes it's hard to do it even this I know it will work.

hope you find what works for you. try everything I guess

Andrew

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

I just cannot keep my shit together at the moment. Just keep falling in the depression pit.

I wish I could see my therapist more than six weekly. I'm really struggling to hold it together 😞 I'm so tired