Not in a good space

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

It's like a feeling just bubbling up to the surface. It's panicky and disgusting and I dont' know what to do with it. There's no thoughts associated with it. It's a feeling. A really gross one. I called the Suicide Call Back service. I didn't find them helpful. What do you do? What helps you?

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy,

Lass you should be so proud of yourself making it in to your prac... yay you!!!

You have this lass...

Hugs

Paws

[Hanna3]

I hope you went OK today Katy. Freezing here 1 degree at the moment! ❄️☺️⛷️

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hi all

Prac day 2 - done! I’m sooooooo tired! Sorry to not be around. Just wanted to send you my kind thoughts and hope you’re all going ok x

Katy

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy

Sounds like you are doing well, good on you! I can imagine you are tired. Are you enjoying it?

So glad you are giving it a good go!

Cheers ☺️💕

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Hello

I am enjoying it, yes. It’s a small team and everyone’s nice (they all talk a lot!!!! Lol). My external supervisor is great too, and I think she’ll be really helpful in getting me through. I even got back to GROW this week, so all full on. It’s 6pm and I’m in bed already!

I do miss my girl when I’m away all day though. Poor Stormy. Lots of snugs tonight 🙂

Hope you’re going ok. Anything new to report on mr music teacher?

Hugs, Katy

[Hanna3]

Hi Katy

I haven't been here for a couple of days. Your prac sounds very positive how long is it for?

No music yesterday G has a cold and is in quarantine until his covid test comes through! We've been chatting but he's grounded. We're surrounded by covid here it's really serious.

My friend up north I was talking to today also can't go out anywhere as covid is everywhere and her husband has a disability.

Things here are really tough with the virus threatening and no vaccine available - diverted to Sydney. Nsw is a mess. I'm trying to stay outdoors as much as possible.

G teaches at several high schools so he's at risk and can't get a vaccination.

~eeeeeek.

You're better off in WA at the moment!

I'm going to bed soon too. Pats to Stormy 🐾🙂

[ecomama]

Oh wow Katy!

GO YOU!

I am SO PROUD of you getting to prac and then getting there again!
Huge achievements for you there.

Then again lol. She's on a roll!

We all know there are going to be some good times and crappy times, but getting up and getting in there will only reveal what type of day we have.
Plus our outlook on it.

Good on you for persevering.
Wonderful Katy.

Love EM

[Paw Prints]

Hello Katy, wave to everyone,

It's wonderful to hear that you're enjoying your prac... & that the folk there are nice... I've been hoping that no news from you meant good things re your prac...

Wow!!!... going back to GROW after last time is such an achievement... you should be so proud of yourself for simply even trying to go... actually making it shows how strong you are...

As it looks like you will be getting a wet weekend... staying snuggled up with Stormy is a great idea.

Stay warm

Hugs

Paws

[Katyonthehamsterwheel]

Dear diary style post cos the weekend has been hard. Suicidal thoughts rolled on in. The universe likes to challenge me. But I’m still here. Yesterday was a little too close to the edge though. I’ve booked into my dr to get some magic pills. Last year was bonkers and I can’t do that again. I wonder when it will stop hurting? Maybe it won’t…

[Sophie_M]

Hey Katyonthehamsterwheel,

Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experiences. We like your idea of posting in a diary-style tonight. We're sorry to hear this weekend has been challenging. Was there a particular moment you felt really low? what was going through your mind? 

Please know that our community is here to listen and offer our support. We are here to help you through this difficult time. We are also trying to get in touch with you privately.  You might also like to talk these feelings through with our Support Service. They can be contacted anytime on 1300 22 4636 or get in touch with us on Webchat 1pm-12am AEDT here: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport