Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou for your kind thoughts Mr Woof. Appreciate it. And true I have been on BB for a couple of years now. I have felt a lot of heart wrenching pain in my life, though have not expressed it much on Beyond Blue.

Anyway just wanted you to know that I read your post a while ago. And to Thankyou for thinking of me.

Shelleybelly

[Guest_1055]

Ah Thankyou for your words Elizabeth. No sorry needed I don’t think.

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

How are you going there Mrs D?

Thankyou so much for your post to me, it means a lot to me that you noticed I was struggling. I read it a while ago.

But only today I realised that the hope you desired for me to find. Well I have been looking for it in the wrong places. It is not to be found in other relationships because people let you down ,people hurt us, people don’t treat us the way we want to be treated or love us the way we desire to be loved.

I think I am slowly releasing that it is Jesus that I need to hold onto. He is the anchor in amongst the storms. The only one who I need to hold on to. I will be okay if I continually hang on to Him.

Many thanks to you Mrs D

Shell xx

[Guest_1055]

Ah I like the beach too croix. Love the ocean breezes and watching the waves come into the shore. Nice and peaceful. Sounds relaxing your time with your wife and puppy dog Croix.

Thankyou for writing yo me

Shell

[Guest_1055]

A big hello to you too Velv. Ah friendly hug.😊

Shell xx

[velvetfaerie]

Hey Shell. Sorry I have been aloof. Very busy and very .... some other things but I can't find my words. I just need a break/holiday and change from the norm.

**hugs back**

Faith. It is a good thing to have. Keeps you moving.

😄

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

It's pretty good to see you again, and if you've found something to help support you that is great too. We all need to lean at times.

Beaches are a wonderful place, there always seems to be a breeze, and I find that does tend to blow troubles away. I have a place I imagine when I want to take myself out of things for a few minutes. It is a place I knew in Wales where the hills lead down to a lighthouse and the path goes between rocks and stone circles. Short turf and sheep. There is always a strong breeze - and gulls - in my imagination. It refreshes me.

I hope you too have such a retreat for a few moments when life presses.

Croix

[blondguy]

Hi Shelley

Always great to see you on the forums. I am like you...I love the beach...except that I am guilty of not going as much as I should

I am 40 minutes from the ocean beach.....I should practice what I preach and get down there for some R&R

my kind thoughts for you

Paul

[Guest_1055]

It’s been a while since I posted in this thread. I did not feel the need to. But tonight I feel stirrings of anger inside me.

I am trying to have hope. But He does not love me. His lack of affection, attention and even not wanting to hang out with me makes me feel so sad. I am trying to look to God. But it hurts, his rejection of me hurts and tears my heart out. And anger is here because I want him to live me and he won’t. Some days I can handle this, but not today. I just feel lonely.

[Guest_1055]

It’s hard to hang on. Where does my help come from. The maker of heaven and earth. This is in a song and I will listen to it. Why won’t he love me and why does he not want me? It is hard not to feel worthless , like I am not worth it to him. Not worth loving. Okay will listen to song now.

Just need to vent this all.