Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

I've not seen you around for a while and wondered how you are doing. I've become used to your gentle help to others in their threads and just realized I've not seen you.

I know you have had ups and downs in the past and hope it is simply you are busy at the moment.

Croix

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

I was gong to just pop in and say Happy Christmas but I've just read your post to DB, which really made me sad that you felt such torment, and a bit relieved that you handled the pain in a reasonable sort of way.

No, walking along the side of the highway at night might not have been quite the wisest thing to do, but it was at least a way of dealing with it, the exercise and then the fatigue would have helped, and you arrived home safe.

Sometimes what we see or hear is just too much and the mind sort of rebels.

You are pretty experienced handling things nowadays and I hope you can wind down today and at least catch some of the positive and caring thoughts going your way.

One of the traditional Christmas wishes is for peace, so that is what I wish for you

Croix

[quirkywords]

Shell,

I have been thinking of you and wondering why I have not seen your name. I saw your post to DB and it made me sad to think of you in pain.

I am pleased you felt safe to express your emotions.

I have missed your posts.

I am sending kind thoughts to you.

Quirky

[monkey_magic]

Hi shell,For what it's worth I just wanted to wish u a merry Christmas.

I've been in many many situations where people I have loved have hurt me deeply. Not the funnest feeling in the world. I did like the way you tried to regroup and glad you got home safely. I bet your glad you got through that walk 🙂

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou for thinking of me Croix, quirky and Steph. Thanks too for the merry and happy Christmases as well. Christmas Day was not one of my best days this year. However today I do feel more at peace within, so that is good isn't it?

Much love and thankfullness to you Croix, Steph and dear Quirky. Hug for you Steph, as I know you like hugs.

Me xx

[Elizabeth CP]

hi Shell, Glad you are feeling better than you were. Sorry I haven't spoken earlier.

[blondguy]

Hello Shelley

Great to see you back. I read your post on another thread...You have been on the forums for so long....I have never seen you go through such pain before

My very kindest thoughts for you

Paul

[Doolhof]

Hi Shell,

I send you my greetings as well and do so desire that you are able to find hope where there sometimes feels like there is little to be found.

Later today I am going to start working on a plan for the coming year, to decide and think of where I want to be, who I want to be and how I want to live.

I might start with listing what I don't want in my life any more and work out how to overcome those obstacles.

Cheers to you from Mrs. D.

[Croix]

Dear Shell~

Yes feeling more peaceful within, no matter what is happening outside, is a real boon and something to be sought - so I'm pleased you have reached that state - at least in part.

My Christmas, and New Year are quiet, with a family visit or two, though I don't think they have the same effect as yours do. New Year is my partner and I on a beach by ourselves, with the waves, breeze (and the Zeppelin Dog of course). Very peaceful.

I hope you can have one you enjoy

Croix

[velvetfaerie]

Hi Shell.