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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[velvetfaerie]

Going away TBA - friends work roster.

He is losing his mind and just admitted he is a breaking point. I can't leave him. My uncle went through this kind of malarkey and hes in a hole now.

V.

[CMF]

That's not good, he needs support.If only there were a way to get her to stop this nonsense.

[velvetfaerie]

I’m his only support. But he can’t / won’t help himself. I just need to let it go. It’s hard and I’m confused.

gym.

[velvetfaerie]

Im his reason to keep going he said. Big thing to carry.

Im sorry about today. I gotta stop whinging and just get on with it.

Heres to sleep!!!

[CMF]

Firstly you're not whinging and no apology needed. I'm the queen of whinging.

Secondly, he shouldn't put the that pressure on you, not fair. We are responsible for ourselves, but I know how caring you are and want yo help people.

thirdly, you've mentioned he has depression. Time for him to do something about it otherwise no one can be happy. He's needs to start helping himself first.

I'm sorry it's all so hard on you but it can't all fall on your shoulders, he needs to step up a bit.

hugs

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

He’s not the most motivated person in the world, depression does that right?

And I agree he needs to at least educate himself about a few things.

Lol queen of whinging!!!

I have barely slept. At least I’m on holidays from midday today YEEEHHHAAAA....

v.

[CMF]

Let's get our sillies on 😂😂😂

[velvetfaerie]

I work for a university. There is no adulting today. It is all sugar sugar ping ping....

and NO WORK FOR TWO WEEKS YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[CMF]

Depression does do that.

how was your day? How are you feeling? Have you seen the Christmas chill out longe thread? Few of is hanging around in there. I'll be there Xmas eve and Xmas evening most likely.

have you decided what you're doing? Hoes your dad?

hugs

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

Hey CMF,

I’ll come find the lounge.

My afternoon consisted of bed, nap, then gym. Was excellent!!!

Dads home. On a supportive diet for crohns and post obstruction. It won’t last lol. Especially on Christmas Day!!! I’m pretty sure what caused the blockage this time wa Chinese food, rum and chocolate. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Yeh the depression was and is bad for male. I let him express to me. When he wants to. Being fifo, and going through what he is and being away over the festive season... I’m just worried. So yeh I’m doing my best to be his friend first and foremost because he needs a friend, even if he’s a pain at times.

lounge........

v.