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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[CMF]

Hi Velvet,

how are you doing. Good to hear your afternoon was wonderful. Is the sleep improving?

glad to hear your dad's home. Chinese food, rum andchocolate. Nice combo lol.

the man thing is lucky to have you. You're a goo person being a friend he needs. If he Di something abou is depression do you hink he could stand up to the ex? O ones he ex cause the depression so if she backed off he could improve ?

Blue Two has gone. Think I scared her off 😔

have you made your Christmas plans?

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

Sleep is getting there. Trying hard to find a routine again.

I think man things depression has a lot to do with her beating him down for years and her actively isolating him. He’s not sleeping well either. Worse than me.

Oh no..... I doubt you scared blue off. Very much doubt it.

Going to my olds Chrissy day then probably onto a friends place. 😁😁

[velvetfaerie]

Just discovered my ex from 2 years ago, who I worshipped and looked after lied to me. I was cut up for 6 months over him literally vanishing.

I was the other woman. He had a lady and I think a daughter. On top everything else being lies.

He vanished from my life when everything in his life went bad. Now I have a suspicion why. She must’ve found out.

i feel so sick and upset.

😢😢😢😢😢

[CMF]

OMG what the???

All I can say is thank god he is your ex. I cannot imagine how it must make you feel to find this out but think of it as a blessing that he left. Yes, you were badly hurt but look at the crap he is in and deservedly so.

Don't waste your time and energy being upset over him, he's not worth it. I know it is easier said than done but the person you loved and worshipped was not the real him.

Some people are just unbelievable jerks.

[velvetfaerie]

I’ve been lied to and cheated on and with so much I don’t know if I can trust anymore.

Im currently not sure what to do re man thing hobbit thingy in the difficult circumstances we are in.

I and so scared of being hurt again.

[CMF]

I know that feeling. I have no desire to meet anyone again. I think when we feel this way we become so wary of everyone, even the good ones don't stand a chance.

I'm sorry you're hurting so much. I have no words to make it better but i do understand. You're not alone.

CMF x

[velvetfaerie]

I am ok. The dirty scoundrel where I was the other woman... meh... karma gets them if it hasn’t already.

Ive been so busy sorry I’ve been a bit absent. Enjoying my holidays lol.

V.

[CMF]

That's my girl, let Karma deal with it, you've got better things to do.

Glad you're enjoying your holidays. What's planned for NYE?

Keep smiling 🙂

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

I’m recharging my batteries and it is good.

Nye maybe just hang with a friend or two .... not too fussed.

Booked a tattoo yesterday. Cover up my old ones on my back lol. Full back piece. Because I earned it the last two years. Can’t wait for it to be finished up. Few hours worth. Odins ravens. I like birds and mythology and corvids. Clever critters.

[CMF]

A gift to yourself for all the BS you put up with. Well done.