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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[velvetfaerie]

two - twice.

too - as well.

**golf claps**

[velvetfaerie]

Hahhhaahahahhaahhashhah

[CMF]

Velvet, looks like got an early Xmas present. 🐟🐟🐟

[velvetfaerie]

😁😁😁😁😁🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪

[CMF]

Hey Velvet,

how is your week going? Have you decided to tKe that drive/ break and get away from everything?

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

Hey CMF,

Currently talking to my friend who lives up the coast. Her and her partner aren't getting much time off over Chrissy so I have offered to do the driving to visit given I get almost 2 weeks off, more time to rest than they do.

Saw the creature this am. He took me to work. We just adore each other and he has realised, APPARENTLY, he has been a knob. Plus karma dished out some things that made his realise how hurtful some things have been. Slow. Time. Velvet patience. Him being more aware and open. He goes back up to work this morning. YAY. LOL.

Today is skittles day. So. Tired.

V.

[CMF]

ooohhhh interesting about the man and nice of Karma to pay a visit too.

If he can be aware and open that is start.

I hope you do get to get away over the break. 2 weeks, pretty good!

In case we don't speak beforehand, i wish you the best of christmases. I hope you have peace, contentment and joy and i hope the new year brings you health, happiness and anything else you work towards.

Hugs

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

Aweee thank you CMF. Likewise.

Yeh he is growing some self awareness. And realising I am not that bad. I am not interested in him beyond him. I don't want money, or kids. Just him. I dumped the money last year AHAHHAHA.

V.

[velvetfaerie]

But he still says we will do things that won't ever happen because she still manipulates the situation using the kids.

I am OVER CHRISTMAS>.. I hate it. I hate being alone. I hate this situation. I just feel worthless. I am nothing. I Hate the Christmas morning tea. I walked out. I am not pretending to be bloody happy. they can stick their carols and kid stories...

V.

[CMF]

You're not worthless and you're not nothing. You're too good for some people.

Christmas morning teas and lunches are hard when you're having a rough time.

When are you going away to see your friends?