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[velvetfaerie]

My first introduction thread after being here FOREVER..... because I always do things backwards...

Velvz. Bipolar.... type? Not sure. I walked out of the psychiatrists office the day he tried putting me on more meds. That was a decade ago.

Anxiety issues. OCD issues. Occasional SH concerns. Checkered history of substance abuse.

I manage for the most part by exercising, good healthy food and good sleep practices. Substances these days are 3 drinks maximum and I'm rat assed.

I work full time. Study part time. Bought my own house years ago. On my own. Ok the bank helped lol!!! Most days for me are 10-14 hours depending. That's work and study and house things and exercise.

At the moment I'm struggling because I believe I've burnt myself out and pushed myself into hypomania. I'm all over the shop. Been here before but no psychosis stuff. Woo.

Oh man I don't know what else to say. No kids. Love kids. But conscious decision not to have my own. Love men. But sadly I'm intolerant to relationships after a while. Moody 😁😁

Animals and music are my passions.

Yeh so..... **** awkward silence***

velvz.

[velvetfaerie]

Hormones lol..... a good workout fixed me up. 🙂🙂🙂

[CMF]

Hey Velvet,

how is everything going? How have you been?

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

I’m good. Been a very busy social weekend. All good stuff.

you?

[velvetfaerie]

Feeling a bit moody today. Hobbits adjusting to a new routine which has absolutely no guidelines or plans. Just wing it. So I am not a consideration. Not even communicated with. I just feel so shunted aside, convenient and blah blah.

So I have been helping some internet mates with things i TOTALLY understand as I have lived it. Got the soap box of strength out LOL!

[quirkywords]

Velvet

You make me smile , mind you I am not smart enough to know what you mean.

Hobbits and soap box and blah blah, you have an interesting life!

Quirky

[velvetfaerie]

Making people smile is good. I enjoy it. Been doing it all morning on FB.

Interesting life? Not really. I guess its all relative.

I am miss poopy pants. I need a snickers. LOL.

[CMF]

Hi my friend,

I've missed you but know you have been busy. Re hobbit, i think give him that space to reorganise his life. i know it makes you feel unappreciated but from how you describe him it may just be his way. Has he moved out and detached himself from the leech?

Besides all that how have you been? You always make me smile 🙂

cmf x

[velvetfaerie]

Yeh he moved out a month ago. They all just finding their footing.

He wants to see me tonight. I am ok with this AFTER my gym... and not as a convenience. Or to be used.

I am good. Just had a fire alarm go at work. Always fun. The big boss is a smarty pants.

How are you?

[velvetfaerie]

He isn't going to be able to see his eldest for her birthday. No idea why.

She is having friends sleep over for the weekend as teens do for birthdays. He has been told he is having the younger one so as to prevent fights between all the kids.

I have always seen a divide here. Ex and eldest and him and youngest. To me, in my naivety, this looks like it is becoming more apparent. He seems off at the moment. I can understand why.

I am just going to do my thing. Can't push this situation.

V.

[CMF]

Yeah, think you need to sit that one out and let him deal,with it or sort it out. How old are the kids again? Boys or girls? I think it's normal when they research teenage years they sometimes just prefer to stay with one parent rather than go back and forth. If they're siding against him then no but if just a convenience thing, nit slot anyone can do.