how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Aaronsis]

Oh wow Mark..I think your painting is so fun, it is bright and colourful and it looks so good, I would be thrilled to have done that, good on you!

Thank you so much for the cake, if we could only just hand it through the computer that would be awesome...lol..but you enjoy it on my behalf..yum!

going to the hospital is a whole thing isn't it, I too had the whole procedure of temp check and 50 questions, guess they have to do what is required, then you get your green sticker with a tick on it to wear...I hope all goes really well with your scan tomorrow and that you can get some great news on your progress.

It is really funny how some kids are really loving this home schooling situation and others are just not coping, I would have thought that my son would have really enjoyed it but he is really struggling with it, not being with his mates and just the lack of motivation is really getting worse for him.

Well I am looking forward to hearing that you too are taking up painting in your spare time, we can have themes and have paint offs if you like..lol..how fun!

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah thank you for your kind words about my painting.I know i am bad but it is fun to paint.I have that painting hanging in my sons room.We could do paint offs and i know your paintings will definately be better then mine.

I have been awake since 2 am this morning.I havent been sleeping really well lately and i am anxious about having the scan done today.

I hope you have a nice day.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

All the very best with your scan today, I know you will be feeling very anxious and so I wanted to write to let you know I was thinking of you and hope that you are coping.

Being up so early will make for a pretty long day today, hopefully you can get a little nap in this afternoon, how lovely.

I am so happy to hear you have put the painting up in your son's room, how lovely and a really lovely thing for him to have, a painting his dad did, really cool.

I can assure you my friend that the stakes would be very even if we had a paint off..lol...as you said, I really just enjoy it and I am in no way delusional of my ability..lol

Chat to you soon and thinking of you today.

Hugs
Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah the hospital appointment went well and i got in almost straight away for my scan.I go back next friday to see the doctor.I did fall asleep when i got home from the hospital while watching tv.

I called into Bunnings to get a few things for my garden bed and bought to new roses a ornage called Super Star and a dark red one called Papa Meilland.

I have a child free weekend being mothers day tomorrow.I got the kids something online to give their mother and my daughter is going to make pancakes for her for breakfast in bed.I hope your kids spoil you rotten like you deserve.

I hope your mother is doing well and no how much that would be on your mine and how worried you would be.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I wanted to say that I will be thinking of you today..Mother's Day as you remember and cherish the beautiful women in your life that you called Mum. I know today is a hard day for you and i send to you my thoughts.

I think it is wonderful that even though your relationship has ended with your wife you can still ensure that she has a wonderful mother's day, this really speaks to the amazing person you are.

Chat soon my friend and thinking of you today.

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah thanks for the kind words and i will be remembering my mother today.I hope you have a great mothers day and your kids spoil you a bit today and you can take it a bit easy.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

Thank you for your wishes and I had a really lovely day with my kids. I got two little rings and they are the sweetest things, I had scones and jam and cream..not very vegan...my son had to work for three hours but it was a really lovely day.

I am sorry that your day will be sad and missing your mum, but not really different to any other day when we miss the people in our lives, it is so very hard.

Thank you for your kind wishes and big hugs to you.

Your friend

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Been feeling very down and i know i am no help to anyone.I just get in the way and know my words are useless.I just wanted to help and make a difference.

[Sophie_M]

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[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

I am so sorry to hear that you are really struggling at the moment and that you are feeling so very down.

I don't agree with you though, I am sure your kids don't agree either, you are so very helpful, you are kind and you are caring and you go above and beyond to put others before yourself. The things you do for your children is so wonderful and you are an amazing father, and more so as you do have children that need more than most and you are there, to do whatever it takes to see that they have appointments, that school work is done, that their emotional needs are meet but mostly, that they are loved.

I am here with you Mark and sitting with you at this time, I am just so sorry that we cannot have a cuppa and a walk through your garden to chat about the beauty that you have grown there. Maybe some banana cake too!

It is OK to feel sad, it is ok to cry, I just want to reach out my hand now and say "we care and we are here my dear friend".

Hugs as always my friend

Sarah