how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

I am so sorry today is tough, that it is a day that brings back lots of memories and with that feelings of loss, grief and sadness. I understand how hard it is for you to have lost your friend, how much you supported her through her wellness and now you need some support and she is not there to care for you, I am so sorry Mark.

I don't agree with your ex, and I also think it is a very hurtful thing to say to another person. I would not mind suggesting that maybe this is her hope that you don't find a person to enjoy your life with, so as that she can play a role, be it however negative, in your life. While she will always be the mother of your children, that is where the relationship stops now and she doesn't get to pass judgement or comment on your life. I am sorry she said this to you.

I have pretty much just finished all my Sunday chores before the kids arrive and might spend the afternoon reading or maybe even get into some painting.

Are you able to get up and about today and maybe even just sit outside and enjoy your garden?

Huge hugs to you my friend

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah thanks for your kind words.I didnt do much i did pick another watermelon and just layed on the lounge watching tv.My ex has said some really hurtfull things to me.She said she only married me for my money.I always have things like that going through my mind.

I bope you enjoy having your kids back.You miss them when their not around.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah i like your new profile pitcure.You are a great artist.

[Aaronsis]

Naww thank you so much my friend.

This is my cow and actually one I dedicated to a girl I am chatting with here.

I am not great at it but I love it and it gives me some time to clear my brain and to be in a space of not thinking.

How are you feeling today and how are you coming along in your recovery?

That is a stunning purple flower that you have updated your profile with, is it a rose?

Today is freezing here in Melbourne and I am working from home, have the heater cranking and feel like eating and eating and eating.....I am very much looking forward to isolation being over.

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah the main thing is your enjoying your painting.I did some paintings in hospital to pass the time.They were terrible not as good as yours.

The profile picture is of one of my roses.I am going to transplant that one into my new garden bed when i finish it.It isnt getting enough sun where it is growing.

I am feeling better today and not in as much discomfort today.The hospital wants me to come in friday to have a scan to check everything.

Its freezing here today as well.I should get the fire going.I suppose living in isolation is mostly how i have been living most of my life.At least before i could go for a motorbike ride when and where i wanted.I havent been for a long road since i broke down on the Qld/Nsw border.If i went into NSW today i wouldnt be allowed back without a pass.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

Feeling really down this afternoon.Went back to bed and having a good cry.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

That is really cool that you have been doing some painting also, I am sure that yours are very good, if you feel you want to share them I would love a sneak peek!

There has been something in the air this week and I am not sure if it is that we are so close to starting to be able to resume "normal" that that in fact does cause some worry too, as what will normal look like now, another uncertainty.

I have had a pretty crappy few days and I think I am going to treat myself to something fun today, my daughter wants to tie dye so maybe we will end up doing that, I too need a bit of fun to get my self back up and going too.

I am sorry you have been so sad Mark, I think you are doing so well though and I know you don't always feel like you have come very far in your journey but I can see so many things that you are making some really great progress and I am so proud of you.

I hope today is wonderful for you.

Hugs

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I am so sorry you have been having some bad days.I really appreciate your support you give me on here.You are really an amazing person i am for you as well.

I will put one of my pictures up i painted that has motorbikes.Then you can see how terrible they are.I left most of my paintings at the hospital and they were on display with everyone elses.

I will see how my daughter goes when she restarts school next week.My daughter has seen her psychologist a couple of times over the week.My son dosnt start school for another a couple of weeks.

I just made some banana bread and am going to have a cup of milo with it in a minute.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark

[Aaronsis]

ohhh yum, banana bread and a cup of Milo, how wonderful.

I can't wait to see your painting, I am so very sure it is not terrible at all and like me, you see the fault in all you do and can't just appreciate it for the joy it gave you, but I am getting better at it.

Online schooling has been a real challenge and I think we are all doing a wonderful job as guess what...we are not teachers....but I have learnt some stuff and I have learnt patience this week too, and to try to keep my cool and that the kids will be fine when they do go back and everyone will finish the year in the same place, the teachers will make sure of that. I think at best we can make sure their emotional wellbeing is being met.

Thank you for your kind words Mark and it really is the kind words of others that get us through these times and knowing that even though we are sometimes in pain, help is at hand and that there are others that do care.

Hugs and save me some cake..lol

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah the banana bread was yum and i saved you piece.

Yes home schooling has had some challenges and been a different experience for us all.My daughter has done well being home school.My son needs the extra support that he gets at school from people who know what they are doing.

I have to have a scan at the hospital tomorrow.Its a bit of a circus getting into the hospital at the moment.You get your temperture taken and asked a million questions and then given a sticker that you got the ok.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.