how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah thats worst part of it i have no way of contacting her,no email address or anything.

I love to see some of your paintings and you should put them as your profile picture.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I do remember you saying that now that you had no way of contacting her, that is so frustrating and really adds to the pain of it all, I am sorry I suggested that now as it was not helpful in the least. Also the not knowing how she is and if she is safe and how she is going in general is also so much to manage and I am really sorry you have this to deal with. It does hurt when a friend leaves, unfortunately we have all been there and it really does suck.

That is so lovely of you to want to see my art, I will put up some in my profile and you can see them. I will start with my favorite so far which is my Easter Bunny.....

I have a wonderful day planned today of mopping the floor and washing bed sheets...lol

Chat soon my friend xx

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah it is easy to forget things.I get so worried about her.It really does suck when you cant contact someone even just to find out if they are ok.

I just did some cleaning and hung some pitcures up on the wall i painted.I will do the other wall later in the week.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

So you will notice that I have put my Easter Bunny that I painted up for you to see....he is ok..lol...I have some way to go with my art but I really enjoy it and it sure does keep me busy through the quieter days with iso.

I want to be able to do something really big on a canvas or something but not sure I am ready for that yet.

How are you today? How are the kids and are you getting them ready for home schooling? Mine are ready to get started tomorrow, I have no idea how it is going to go but we will jump in and have a crack tomorrow and see how we all go.

Sure is some strange times.

Sure sounds like you are doing some good stuff around your house with painting and hanging prints on the walls, that is really great. It makes the house feel fresh as well as giving you some satisfaction that you have made an improvement.

Off to have some lunch now..I am starving....

Chat soon my friend

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah I like your bunny,you have talent.

I mowed the lawn this morning and probably wont have to do it again until spring.My kids home schooling starts next monday.Very nervous about it.I dont know how it will all work out.It will be for at least five weeks.

I am going to paint the remaining wall tomorrow and have just been cleaning it and getting it ready.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

Thank you for saying I have some artistic talent, that is really sweet of you, I kind of really do like my rabbit too!

Good on you for mowing, I find it one of life's most arduous tasks and I really really struggle to get out there and do it, in saying that I always love how it looks afterwards and think, gee I should do this more frequently..lol

Good luck with the wall today, I will be thinking of you there painting away and making it all fresh and new, great work!

Well it is day one for home schooling for my two, I will let you know some tips or any learning's i have from the next few days, anything that can help etc...I am kind of looking forward to seeing how it goes really.

We have our flu vaccinations at work today so I am going to be busy putting the 1.5m distancing spots down and managing people as everyone is coming in to get their shot!!!

Have a great day Mark and hope you get lots done.

Chat soon

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah please let me know how the home schooling went.I finished painting the lounge room now.I just have to put everything back and rearrange a few things.I did my order to today for my groceries and will get them delivered tuesday.I had to pay $9 delivery fee when it was suppose to be free for pensioners.It was last order.I am not real worried about it as it would cost that in petrol to go to my nearest store.I have just gone to bed having a bit of a cry wishing i had someone to share my daily life with.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I hope you are doing ok today, I have some great news, home schooling is actually going ok. The kids log in each morning to get their name marked off, then they move to the first class, it is actually really working so much more smoothly than I thought. Sure there are times when they ask for help, but if I don't know I just tell them to perhaps email the teacher and arrange some extra support or even ask one of their friends. It has been ok. My daughter is really liking it, she said "way too much"...lol as for my son, he needs some poking to get fired up but once he is on he is off and running.

I am sorry that the whole online shopping experience has come at a cost, especially when you weren't expecting it. I hear you that you so would love a special person back in your life, to share the day, the ups and the downs, it is really hard Mark and I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. I hope the small amount of love you feel here on the forum gets you through somewhat, I know it is hard but we are here and we care about you Mark.

Well I am off to make some morning tea for these kids...

Hope you have a great day today Mark.

Huge hugs as always

your friend

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah that is great home schooling is going good for you the kids probably wont want to go back to school.I worry about my daughter doing such hard subjects that i cant even help her with.

I have been busy shifting a heap of firewood that i had stacked against the back fence as it was making the fence lean over.

Everything seems to be dearer now at the shops.I couldnt get the cat food brand that my cat likes but managed to get most things i wanted well i will see if they come tuesday if i get what i ordered.I forgot to order a few things but they wernt urgent.I dont mind paying extra for delivery as it would cost me that in petrol.It just use to be my fortnight outing but rather stay away from the shops now if i can help it.I had to check the mail at the post office yesterday as we dont have mail delivered here and i went out to the highway and got petrol and it was under a dollar a litre.It has been along time since i have seen that.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

Its been seven months today and i still havent improved and still spend my days crying.I wont forget the day i lost you forever it would have been my mothers birthday.