Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Hi my lovely bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and other good people 👋 belated hi back to you Hannah ☺

How're you going sweetyheart.
Oh darlin I'm finally back to chat with you. I know there's no pressure to reply and that you know I read but I don't like not being here for you. Tho only in posting.
Deep appreciation for you understanding thanks champ.
You're lodged deeply in my heart dear Grandy which will always be 💜yAdimh.

Wow I sussed Bettys
painful condition. Yikes nasty stuff.

Looks like it eventually settles crikey you'd want it to.
I read heavy lifting can bring it on too.

Please if she knows you post here pass on my sympathy if not I'll send it virtually poor lady.

Must have been quite stressful for you too sweets.
Others pain esp people we care about can have such a powerful effect on us.

Although I'm very dirty on your boss carrying on like a pork chop it was very sad him forgetting where he left the car.

I wouldn't wish on anyone what first came to mind is ? Dimentia which could explain the abrupt temper outburst & the car.
On saying that which may/not be the case I'm inclined to agree with one of our lovelies here that some men don't like being stood up to basically.

I was deeply disappointed because in the earlier days he seemed to be supportive of your mh and nice.
Somethings going on either way but a simple apology would be the right thing to do.
Sounds like in his own way he's making ammends.

It's important lovely that we don't down ourselves if we don't get jobbies done.
As we know to well in poor mh motivations just a word that we would dearly love to make happen. We'll get there.
How bout opposed to feeling the self down tell yourself...Good I did those cursing lawns when I was ready.
You pushed through no motivation later and did them. Good job huns 👍

Such a big job if I was there I'd ...force someone else to do them 😉 dus twicken...Oh wouldn't pay them either but the glass of water I'm sure they'd appreciate 😁. Seriously I'd be happy to do them.
How's that toxic weed going?

Love hearing about your little furs.

I best get a couple more hrs kip huns my eyes are sitting on the keyboard. At least that way I don't need my glasses on 😆 just an eye wash to clean off the dust.

Deep love beautiful. 🏠 Oh I wish. Swod hun 👩‍❤️‍👩💜🤗😚👀💗

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩...and everyone.....🤗.

Thank you for posting bbff...I know your not well...you post means a lot to me knowing how your feeling both physically and mentally...☺️..

I went to work today...The boss never came in..it was busy...It just doesn’t feel the same anymore...better he doesn’t come in.,.

Betty and her fur baby Bindi...stayed at mine last night, poor lady was scared of the storm because it was windy and a few big branches of a tall tree on her property was breaking of and falling on her roof...It was nice to have her stay over....

I don’t mind doing the lawn...it’s about the only exercise I do..and I know it does my body good...most of that horrible weed has gone...it’s just the usual weeds now....

My WW supporter...left me..without even saying good bye or that she was even leaving...

Why and How can people be so insensitive towards other people’s feelings....especially after more then 2 years?...

Idk..I couldn’t do that to anyone...obviously I was just a job for her...

A new WW supporter msged me today..and wants to visit me tomorrow...I am not ready nor atm want to see anyone else....

much love to you Deebi...with lots of care..💚🦋🌹🤗..

hugs, love and care everyone..🤗💜🦋..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy (waves to Deebi)

I am on late tonight and I can't stay on too long as little Sam isn't quite well but I saw your post.. I am so sorry about the WW not telling you she was leaving, I think that's terrible. They build up a relationship with you, why don't they tell you what is happening? Is there some rule that says they have to behave like this? I would be asking the place that sends them to you and asking if this is the way things are supposed to happen, because it seems very uncaring to me. Poor old you!

You said the shop doesn't feel the same, do you mean not as nice as before? Or better without the man there?

I'm so glad your neighbour stayed overnight I think that's marvellous that you are friendly enough for her to stay there with you and feel safe and that you were able to manage that. Good for you Grandy you are wonderful! You are managing so much better than you give yourself credit for!!!!

I hope tomorrow goes OK for you with the new person - maybe they will be much nicer and kinder?

Fluffiest of soft cuddles from little Sam, athough he is a bit poorly lately. hugs.

[Ggrand]

Hello Hanna...

I found out today that she’s moving...Its okay though..I form attachments to people after I learn to trust them..which I shouldn’t...and will try not to anymore...I msged back that I’m not ready to see someone new yet...I hope they understand that it’s too quick for my mind to process all this....

Better without the boss...I am on edge all day..thinking he will come in...One concern is that as soon as something other then clothes come in...The other girl working with me..stops doing the cloths and starts going through the other things...We are not supposed to touch that stuff...I had to tell her today..not to touch it...and she got uppity with me....If he walked in at that time..he would go off at me..because I have the responsibility of what goes on out back....This girl never listened before I left and still isn’t..

Betty has always been scared of storms, usually manages okay..the storm we had last night had strong winds and her tree is full of borers, very weak and she can’t afford to get it removed..it’s about 60 feet high...and if it falls it will fall on her house...

Thanks for calling in Hanna...I appreciate you and your posts a lot....

Kind thoughts. with love and hugs from the 3 of us..💜🦋🤗..

Grandy..

[demonblaster]

Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 love that's a rotten thing for her to do. She really liked you pfftt some way to show it. You must be so hurt 🤗

Unbelievable isnt it how exactly as you said people can be so insensitive.

Beautiful lady I'll see you tomoz dear friend I'm so tired. Hope you sleep well darlinheart 😚

Nigh night Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 Hannah and all 👋

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

Oh lass... of course your upset about your ww lady leaving without having the decency to let you know herself... how can she not know how hurtful that is... well done msging that you're not ready to meet the new one yet...

That must have been scary for Betty to have bits of the tree falling on her house... I wonder if, given her age, the council might be willing to remove the tree for her... or perhaps her family may be willing to pay the cost for her...

You are lovely letting her stay at yours for the night... Is the pain from her rib problem starting to ease or is she still finding it difficult?

I'm hoping that given a bit of time work will start feeling better for you... it can't be nice for you being on edge the whole time you're there... hopefully the boss will go back to not showing up onTuesdays.

Huggily hugs

Paws

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy,

I think that's a good idea to let them know you're not feeling up to a new person yet. I wonder if this is something they do... ages ago I volunteered with a local council to help new migrants learn English, but the council made us sign rules which meant we could never talk to the person we were helping outside the council office, we couldn't do what I wanted which was take them to the supermarket and explain what the names of things were, such as vegetables and fruit - and we couldn't take them out for a cup of tea or coffee to talk - only sit in the council rooms.

I thought the poor new migrants would have thought I was very unfriendly and I didn't want to continue. I couldn't see why I couldn't take a woman to the shopping centre to help her learn English words for things. So that's why I wonder if this organization has some rule that says these support people are not permitted to let you know when they are leaving? It might be worth checking...

I'm sorry the shop is a bit difficult, good that the man isn't there much, the girl I don't know, if she is young they don't like taking orders these days!!! I think you are managing so well, and going back was a good thing to do at least you have company one day a week, plus your neighbour. Good for you! Don't get too down about it, people can be tricky sometimes... just enjoy the company...

We are noticing lots of trees are changing their leaves into autumn colours early here due to the cooler weather.. but we still might get more heatwaves.. everything is a bit confused!

Hugs from little Sam oxoxo

[demonblaster]

Hiya sweetyheart and other lovelies.

I hope todays a little easier darlin bbff 🍫 ha that was an accident that choccy bar landed ...truth, maybe the universe was looking out for you by sending a yum.
I was after 👩‍❤️‍👩 thatta one.
Both very special loves 🤗

Ahh darlin I don't at all blame you feeling on edge if he's going to come in. Shouldn't be that way!

If he ever has a go at you again let him have it Grandz but maybe he won't because he would've known anyway that you're a good worker reliable and honest.
These qualities are Gold there's some there that could follow suit pfftt.

I know you'd be a good worker you have good ethics and do the right thing by people.

They put you in charge out back which speaks volumes including wanting you out front before.
I'd say that's recognition of your worth lovely one 🙂

Good girl telling Ms upitty not to touch. She sounds like a brat getting the strops when rightfully pulled up doing the wrong thing.

I'm liking you're looking after yourself because you'd wear it and speaking up too.
You go our beautiful Grandy love ✊ Big steps.
Power on my dear friend.
Maybe next time tell her " you're here to work... I'm in charge" ... best I 😷 mute the rest I'd like to add 😆

We had borers in NZ, there was quite a lot of little holes in the wall.
They have from memory a tiny body and hard boring head. Dark Brown.
Yip agree, hope that can be sorted for the dear lady Betty it sounds dangerous and has already started to break away. Scary. Mil doesn't like storms either.

Loven Betty stayed o/n with you. So glad you enjoyed that. She too would have I reckon. Had a pleasant glow reading that.

I hope the rules Hannah hi darl ☺ was talking about is the same re WW supporter. Good move telling them you need time.

I'm hoping when she gets settled she might contact you but hymm 🤔 dunno. Very hurtful.
People and slack rules huh.

Heaps of love dear Grandy I better get more very needed sleep. Should be in the night owls thread a few times lately mostly from pain.

Nigh nite dear bbff. So glad we met. Always in my heart and thoughts. Grandy... 😢 🏠 Not fair huns 🤗

Sleep well everyone. Hi there Pawsy ☺ 🐾

👩‍❤️‍👩💜🍫🤝👀🗯

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

I just saw over at Deebi's that you have a very sore finger... fingers & cactuses definitely do not go well together... lass I'm concerned that you haven't managed to get all the spines out... do you have any antiseptic cream you could put on it to reduce any infection... or some epsom salts to reduce the inflammation... if it's worse tomorrow lass will you please ring the nurse advice line:

To speak to a registered nurse, call healthdirect on 1800 022 222 (Aus wide)

Apart from your finger... how are you lass?

I hope you were able to talk to your VS counsellor on Thursday about how on edge you were at work... if she could offer some help with dealing with it that should help make work less stressful for you.

Sending you some gentle bear hugs

Paws

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paws, Hanna, and everyone...🤗.

Thank you for your posts....

My new WW supporter visited me on Friday...I met her before a few times...when she first started because she was hired to help my supporter and was brought to mine a few times on scheduled visits....New supporter told me they have sold their house and property and has moved to another town...5 hours away...

Its just so not nice to just walk away from someone without even saying good bye...I can’t understand people..I mean she has left WW....not employed by them anymore...I can’t see why she can’t give me a ring to say good bye....It all happened to quick... My last visit with her she said she will ring me the next week....that was the last I have heard from her....

Yes my finger is not feeling the best..thank you Paws for your suggestions..I’ll give them a try tonight...I thought I had some drawing ointment in my first aide box...Couldn’t find it though...I know I broke 2 of while I was trying to get them out...and where those 2 are is quite swollen and red...I can be very clumsy at times....

I am okay...I wanted to make an apron for work..Got my sewing machine out...material out..then I went blank...I don’t have a pattern to cut one out 😂...I get big great ideas...see it completed in my mind....get things ready and then poof, the image is gone... I can see it completed and looking nice.....BUT I don’t know how to go about doing it from the beginning...you know...just a square of material and how to get that image in my brain out and into reality...😂😂...Wouldn’t it be good if we can wiggle our nose...then presto...it’s all completed....

Hoping you’re all doing okay...and having a good weekend..

Deep SSS love dear bbff..💚🧸🤗🦋...yadimh...4 eva and my 💭....

Love, hugs and care...Deebi, Paws, Hanna, and everyone.💜🦋🤗.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..