Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[startingnew]

Oh Grandy

I think Mandy has covered things quite well hete.

You are by far a bad person. You are deeply hurting. Big big hugs.

I will be back soon ok. Breathe. We care and are right there with you 💖❣❤💜💙💗

[Ggrand]

Hello Mandy, Little Butterfly, Deebi, and all...

Amanda Im really sorry your in a lot of pain....Please sweetheart look after yourself....

I am fine...Please don't worry about me... please look after yourselves all of you.... Prob I'm feeling sorry for me...self pity. I don't know....So please I'm okay....

[Birdy77]

Thinking of you Grandy, on this difficult day.

Please read the first 2 paragraphs of Amanda's latest post a few times. It is true and wise.

We are all sending you positive vibes and love.

Please look after yourself this evening and treat yourself as we would treat you ... with kindness and compassion.

🌻birdy

[Guest8901]

Grandy, you dont sound fine, and I am worried about you. I cant help it, its just something we all do when someone we care for (a lot 💓) is struggling. And its plain to all of us that you are right now.

So yeah .. for what its worth .. I am here for you. I know I'm not Deebi, but I do need to feel useful. I'm of so little use for anything else right now.

Amanda 💜

[Ggrand]

Oh Mandy I'm really so very sorry, I appreciate your help, care, love, suggestion, so very much..God..I seem to be saying and doing everything wrong..Please Mandy you are very useful...don't ever think your not...

[Tess2]

Hi Grandy,

i really feel for your pain today and understand it. I am thinking of you and hear in your posts how sad you are. Please be gentle with yourself. You are a kind and caring person. You deserve good things. Unfortunately life doesn’t work that way.. hear all the positives in what your friends here are saying.

Tess

[startingnew]

Hi lovely Little angel,

of course we are worried, we care very much for you. you are really struggling and hurting and its understandable you would be all over the place and jumbled up. Remember to take a breather, the helplines are there if you need and of course you have all of us here sending our love, hugs, and support. Is there something that might be helpful for you to settle abit? A hot bath, looking up at the stars with a hot cuppa, cuddling your dogs, reading a book or doing a puzzle, or your most welcome to continue chatting here too.

Big hugs xoxoxoxo

[Ggrand]

I thought I raised my kids to be kind, compassionate and caring people..I failed their as well...they didn't contact me...they don't care...

Im really feeling empty inside...

I wish I could change places with my hubby....

Im sorry I caused so much fuss over me...I'm fine....I'm always okay..

[demonblaster]

🤗 my darling friend, it's awful seeing you so low. Oh Grandy please don't let IT get the better of you, you've been having a rough time lately and been off your meds not sleeping much really down and todays hard anniversary. Sweety we're right here with you, no ones going anywhere 🤝

Please don't settle for where you are and you have us Grandy and me 💑💜. Your sons as dear Mandy suggested may not have remembered. You're a beautiful person and anyone that's lucky enough to have you in their lives would say same. Truth

I'm staying over tonight love we'll have time under blanky and the stars, a dwinky and if you want to talk I'll listen otherwise you have my shoulder and arms around you.

You'll get through this Grandy, we're with you good lady

Love you very much 💗💑🕊💜👼🌹🍃

🤗 Mandy darlin you're doin it harder too honey 💗🕊 with you as well sweetheart 🤝🌹

[startingnew]

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