Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Hi sweety/s

All best today darling, big days but you'll be ok sweety lady I know you will and remember we're holding your hands and hugs.

That's ok you didnt go lovey, I'm not today either. Too many smokers. Ok though.

Love and thoughts Grandy, care very much and want you to be well always 💜💑👼?.?💗

[demonblaster]

Oh Mandy darlin 🤗 so sorry meant to hi back and same lovey been keeping an eye on you

Love to you sweety 💜💗

Hi all ☺

[startingnew]

Hi Grandy

How was your day? How are you going this afternoon?

Sending love and hugs xoxoxo

[Peppermintbach]

Hi Grandy (and a friendly wave to all),

I know you’re struggling and have a very busy week ahead of you so there’s no need to reply to me. I’m just visiting to say hello and offer some big hugs and moral support.

Amanda: thank you for your kind words. It’s good to see you around 🙂 I often “bump” into you on various threads and enjoy reading your always deeply caring posts.

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi, Amanda,Peppy, SN, Everyone,

Thank you very much for your kind posts..

Things are not going right for me lately.. I am disappointed in me and not liking me at all.. and very emotional...

Please I'm not writing this for replies I'm writing because I need to reply to you but don't know what to say...

My psychologist won't answer my gp or mhn again...I see my psychiatrist tomorrow....feeling so abandoned, unworthy, guilty, just totally over emotional..and afraid, last time I saw him I left his room feeling like I annoyed and frustrated him with my ADs I feel guilty about doing that to him...

Hubby's Anniversary of his passing is on Friday...I have a lot of very mixed emotions here that I cannot explain. When I think about how I feel, I feel like a very bad person for what I think at times.....I did not like him, or the way he treated me, and everything that he done to me....but I loved him...and I miss him...

My mhn want me to start going to the bigger town for a new psychologist on a new mental health care plan, she feels my psych that keeps on cancelling is not good for me...The trip is over 160 kilometre round trip....I can't do it alone...

I'm mixed up all over the place with my emotions and my thoughts...I should go to see my husband on Friday he is over 390 kilometres away from me...But I can't..How bad is that? To many things are playing around in my thoughts...

Grandy.....

[demonblaster]

Dear Grandy

I know you don't want replies. Can I just say you are by absolutely no means a bad person. Please don't ever think that.

Love you Grandy. Sitting listening and hugs when you need them 🤗🌹

Making a Chamomile tea.

You have a lot going on atm Grandy and a painful anniversary approaching. Well done saying how you're feeling. Sorry you're hurting so much.

Always by your side 💜💗💑

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi,

Thank you..💜🌹..means a lot your visit...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🦄👼🌜🌛 please join them today...

[demonblaster]

Always thoughts darlin

Another big day today 🌹

Hope it goes ok lovey

I'll have a nice cuppa and pumpkin scones with rasberry (yum) jam and cream ready.

Big love 💜💑🌹🕊👼sweety G

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🚜

[demonblaster]

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[Ggrand]

Thank you lovey lady....

🌜💜🌛....I kept you so close to ,y heart today...