Alone..Depressed..Sad..

Ggrand
Community Champion
Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..
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Hi lovely Grandy and all,

There is always that teeny weeny little piece of me..called hope, that says.. No your not done.."GET BACK UP"..

I love that...and I love that it came from you. Remember your own words 😉

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

Hello, Deebi, Tess, Randomx, Peppy...

Thank you all very much for your visits and kindness, I appreciate all of you...

Tess...Hope is very a very strong belief to have, and I know that every person has it in us..but at times of deep depression or/and sadness, Beasty steals hope from us and hides it...We have to look for it and once we find it, then believe in it, grab hold of it...then we can start our up journey again....

Randomx....Thank you for your wonderful post...Yes I will keep everyone reminded about the beautiful universe we have and how it's natural mindfulness is to just sit outside and enjoy everything about it....My veranda is my only outs lately...it's peaceful, quiet to quiet since the drought worsened, even the birds are starting to go down in numbers...there heading towards water and food I think..Randomx, just coming to visit me, Saying hello and a small chat is magic, oh and that big hug of yours..I loved it greatly..

Peppy, I will try to remember those words ...I do believe that hope is in all of us but sometimes in really bad downers it's hard to remember to go looking for it..

Deebi...Thank you for calling in..I love your visits and our time together...I hope you're doing okay my special friend..Love you 💜..

My mhn rang me this morning and asked said she wants to call in and see me this afternoon on her way to the lady in the next town...I think she found out that I missed Tuesday's work. Small towns can be an invasion of privacy most times....everyone knows everything...

Ok, now I have to get up, get dressed and tidy up a bit...

Hope everyone day is better then yesterday...

Grandy...xxx

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

So easy to love lady 🤗😚💜

Friend 💑

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HI Lovley Grandy

I hope the visit from your mhn went well today. hugs and love xoxo

Ggrand
Community Champion

Hello Deebi, Starts and all.

Ditto lovely lady...

🦄👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🌹💜🤗..love you..Be okay and look after yourself Deebi...and everyone, please...

Starts...thank you .... yeah it went ok...

Thank you both for calling in for a visit...I appreciate your visit a lot..

love and hugs 🤗..

Grandy...xx. 🌹🌹🤗💜..

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

Hey beautiful friend you've been there for me so much it's time I look after you 💆‍♀️

How are you Grandy?.. Arm around shoulder, I saw you're not having a great day 🤗

How's your bursitis going these days and where are you with your poor jaw and has your headache settled. No need to reply to anything till you're ready just want you to know I too am close by for you.

Care very much Grandy love. Please be ok. Thank you for being such an incredible friend and understanding. What amazing people here.

I know you've not been out much lately, hoping darts might spark a little interest tomoz for you sweetheart like you said to me we need people.

Hope you sleep well tonight honey free of pain and torment

Love and appreciate your care and kindness very much dear friend. Thoughts 🗯 often. 🤗😙

🤝👀💜💗💑

Be ok Grandy you matter 🦄

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Ggrand
Community Champion

Hello Deebi, and waves ang hugs everyone else..

Thank you Deebi, I always love your visits here..

Bursitis is fine, jaw is not to bad if I eat softish food, and headache gone, thank you Deebi. I have a strong pain tolerance, so I'm fine....

I'll try to get out to darts tomorrow, not sure, struggling a little getting out again......I have to go to job supplier, work and mhn on Tuesday...and then Thursday I have to go psychiatrist, he is flying down from RPA hospital... these two are a must do....

Im going into bed now, well soon. I hope I sleep tonight, it's just that the days seem to be getting so long and the time seems to stand still at times....Very slow.and with no motivation at all the days are constantly running into nights then back to days ,.etc round and round and Round...

Deebi, don't worry about me. I'm fine.. You just make sure you take care of you, and choof the beasty off and away from you.... please, goes for all you beautiful people here, please take good care of yourselves.....

I hope everyone has a deep healing sleep tonight, and that tomorrow is a better day than yesterday..love and hugs..💜& 🤗...everyone...

Love you Deebi..💜🦄...

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy👼🦄..

Hi lovely Grandy (and all),

What a busy week you have ahead of you...there seems to be a lot happening this week.

I suppose just see how you go with going to darts. If you go, that’s great. If you don’t go, that’s okay too. I suppose I’m just saying please don’t be too hard on yourself, either way...

I hope you managed to get some sleep last night as I know sleep is often a struggle for you...

Holding your hand and offering gentle reassurance and comfort...

Love and care,

Peppy xoxo

demonblaster
Blue Voices Member

Nigh nite sweety friend/s

You have got a lot on over the next couple of days.

Hope you get a good sleep Grandy and that some peace and light reaches you too.

So glad you had some rain hun

Look after you darlin you're SO important to many

Lot of love ☺💑💜💗🚜🗯

Guest8901
Blue Voices Member

Dear Grandy. 4.40am, so I hope you are getting some much needed sleep right now. You have a big week this week. Job provider, work and mhn today and psychiatrist on Thursday. Thursday could be a big turning point in your life, a day you can look back on and identify as the day you started to truly live. I'm feeling really hopeful for you Grandy.

I will be thinking of you today Grandy and, in case I dont get to talk to you again before then, Thursday too.

Deebi, I will visit you soon. Always reading. Well done so far with the ciggies.

Pepper, always a pleasure reading your posts as you continue to do your daily rounds.

Catch up with you all soon.

Amanda 💕