Hello DutchieSydney,
Welcome to the forums! It seems like you're in a bit of a pickle right now, to put things gently. It's astounding (in an unfortunate way) just how much of an effect anxiety can have on our daily lives. A new job is tough at the best of times, let alone while you're struggling with anxiety.
I don't know if I can give any good advice about the job specifically, but it sounds like you've reached a point where you feel like you need space to focus on yourself, which is definitely a worthwhile goal. I was mostly struggling with depression a few years ago and while I ended up staying in my job, I was also quite unproductive at times and was lucky enough to have an understanding manager and a job I knew quite well.
In my own experience, it can be really hard to just focus on recovering. I had such an up and down journey that it was often very disheartening, and I actually found a lot of solace in distractions and even work at times. It's been quite a long journey for me but breaking that initial bad spiral was very much a matter of refocusing my life around my health, while also trying not to disrupt my life too much (as I don't generally deal well with losing my routine).
Have you got any thoughts on how you would focus on getting yourself into a better headspace?
James
