The last time I made a post in these forums was in 2017. Back then I was probably in the darkest moment of my life since I can remember. I thought that I was beyond help and there was no hope for me going forward.
Here I am in 2021 and I have a job (even though I want to leave to something else), been on a couple of dates, travelled, finished my degree and also made some new friends. I guess these days my woes are different. I've spent a lot of time looking into my past and trying to see if I can get an explanation or reveal some home truths about myself and my experiences.
I have spent time in a psych ward, I've been on differing meds, I've spoken to psychologists and psychiatrists. I've spent some time with mental health charities working with them.
These days I want some new challenges and new things in life - it's hard. I have desires to get a new job and to also go back and study again.
Today has been a quiet australia day - I would've liked to have done something social but that's been hard because i have lost some friends, struggled to make new ones, but on balance I have been trying to re establish contact with other friends from the past.
I dunno what I want in life and I have more questions than answers. But I guess I am here still
I will see my psychologist soon for the first session of the year now that I have a new Mental health care plan.
I am trying to do my best and I get the feeling that it isn't enough maybe.
Yesterday I was very depressed. It's a hard time. That's all. 😕
