Does anyone else feel the way I do? What’s happening?

[StaticGhost]

Does anyone else get the feeling that there is someone else living inside them? I feel like my brain isn't me half the time and that it's someone else, in these moments I feel as if I can't control my thoughts and actions, like there's someone else controlling me. I feel like I've lost myself as a person and that I'm trying to be someone I'm not. My mind is so focused on being part of one aesthetic, that I can't like anything except the things that fall into that category. I'm always comparing myself to other people and asking myself why I'm not exactly like them, then I try to replicate myself to be exactly like that person. I feel so lost in this body of mine.

Nothing feels real anymore. I constantly have moments where I don’t feel like I’m inside my own body, I feel like I’m seeing myself from someone else’s perspective, like I’m not really there. I feel as if nothing around me is real, like everything is fake. This has been happening a lot and I just want to know what it is and why it is happening.

[Alannah57]

I don’t understand that exact experience, but I’m so sorry that something is going on in your experience that is very hard. I hope you feel better, and sending all my warmth and caring energy that you feel great.

[therising]

Hi StaticGhost

This sounds like an incredibly confusing time for you, a time in your life that you're deeply trying to make sense of. My heart goes out to you.

I've come to find that reasoning depends on which perspective you're viewing things from. You could view this from a psychiatric perspective, a biological perspective or a natural one or what some might call 'spiritual'. You'd receive different explanations or reasons from experts in each field.

Wondering if there's anything significant you can pinpoint which has led you to the experiences you're having. Perhaps there's something or someone that's led you to see life from a different angle and now you're questioning what's real in a way, this angle or that. What are some of the things you've come to like, that you never used to like so much? Would you say you're more so a conscious observer of your self, more than ever before? In comparing yourself with others, do you wonder a lot in a way where you feel like you're trying to make better sense of who you naturally are, in comparison to others?

I know I ask a lot of questions and there's absolutely no pressure to answer them here. They're just a bit of food for thought.

🙂

[therising]

Hi StaticGhost

I should add...our brain will try and make sense of every experience we encounter. I suppose you could say our brain is our computer or processor; it will compute and process everything. If it has no reference for something altogether new we're experiencing, not only can things become confusing, they can also become a bit surreal (depending on the intensity of the experience). It's a bit like the brain perhaps saying 'If I have no reference for this 'reality', perspective or version of life I'm experiencing, the only thing that makes sense is...this reality is unreal or surreal. It looks unreal, it feels unreal, therefor it is'. Hope that makes sense. Finding reference to what you're experiencing is key to making things appear and feel more grounded. Sounds a bit strange but making sense of reality can feel like a bit of a trip at times.

🙂