New start and new approach to this year

[HamSolo01]

The last time I made a post in these forums was in 2017. Back then I was probably in the darkest moment of my life since I can remember. I thought that I was beyond help and there was no hope for me going forward.

Here I am in 2021 and I have a job (even though I want to leave to something else), been on a couple of dates, travelled, finished my degree and also made some new friends. I guess these days my woes are different. I've spent a lot of time looking into my past and trying to see if I can get an explanation or reveal some home truths about myself and my experiences.

I have spent time in a psych ward, I've been on differing meds, I've spoken to psychologists and psychiatrists. I've spent some time with mental health charities working with them.

These days I want some new challenges and new things in life - it's hard. I have desires to get a new job and to also go back and study again.

Today has been a quiet australia day - I would've liked to have done something social but that's been hard because i have lost some friends, struggled to make new ones, but on balance I have been trying to re establish contact with other friends from the past.

I dunno what I want in life and I have more questions than answers. But I guess I am here still

I will see my psychologist soon for the first session of the year now that I have a new Mental health care plan.

I am trying to do my best and I get the feeling that it isn't enough maybe.

Yesterday I was very depressed. It's a hard time. That's all. 😕

[Guest_4643]

Hey Ham, welcome back to the forums since you said you haven't posted since 2017.

I'm proud of what you've achieved, well done. I'm sorry you're very depressed and have no friends, and you're alone on Australia Day (happy Australia Day of course), I'm the same as you.

I'm here for you.

[HamSolo01]

Hey Tay
BTW is that ok to call you Tay?

Thanks for your support. I have some friends but they are bit like yours - distant or hard to reach. Can really only manage to talk to them online etc. One friend moved to another state.

Atm I am at home chilling in the air con. Away from the world.

Just playing xbox. Will read hopefully more too soon once I get sick of this

I found some jobs to look at further and apply for. Waiting on some others. Not looking overly positive I guess.

Either way. I guess my new approach will now be to take each day as it comes and not to worry about other stuff.

Good to see you today

[Guest_4643]

Hey, yes it's ok to call me Tay, thanks for asking though.

I have no friends at all. Good luck with getting another job. Good to see you too.

[HamSolo01]

You have us here though Tay

I hope you have had a nice day today

Take care my friend and catch you tomorrow

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Ham (if you want me to call you something else, feel free to say). I hope you have a nice night too, and a good day tomorrow. You have me too.

Take care also xx

[HamSolo01]

Hey Tay. Yes Ham is fine. Sometimes people go with Hams. Either all

how are you today?

I didn't get an interview with a job I applied for two days ago. Annoyed tbh. Wanted to get an interview at least. It hurts I think because I want to leave my current job.

[coasting]

what an amazing achievement, you have built so much over the last few years.

Sorry to hear you having a tough time, but your not alone, I am having a rough time also.

Take care

[Guest_4643]

Hey Hams.

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you can work something out with a job, best of luck.

I'm ok.

[HamSolo01]

Hi Tay and Coasting

Thanks for your support.

today I am off to buy an office chair as I need a new one - my butt gets too sore on the current one lol

I will apply for a couple of things I saw yesterday that I think I fulfilled the criteria for. I guess time will tell on thay one.

In terms of further study I am looking at doing 2 courses but I don't believe it would be possible to do that in terms of time management

trying my best because thats all we can do