Hi Captain T
I'm so glad you're safe.
As far as letting things run their course, do you know what this part of the course is about? I'm a firm believer in there being a reason for everything. While depression impacts us mentally (with all that internal dialogue) and physically (with all that deeply tormenting chemistry), I often wonder how and why it manifests naturally, in a variety of ways. I wonder based on my own experience. Sometimes I find myself wishing someone would show up at the front door, when I go through depressing periods, and say 'I've come to let you know what this is all about'. Would be so much easier than taking days, weeks or months to work out exactly what or who is depressing. It's such hard work Captain T, trying to work it all out for yourself.
I think a lot of the time it can relate to heartbreak of some nature. Whether we're grieving for a lost sense of self or being kind of forced to finally let go of some old belief systems we've been clinging onto or feeling the disappointment process in some other way or it relates to some sense of loneliness we feel while the heart is desperate for someone to help us navigate the tormenting course we're on, so much of this stuff can be felt so deeply. Do you ever feel there are times where if everyone around you could not hear, you'd scream at the top of your lungs for as long as it would take to lose your voice or become completely exhausted of the frustration that's felt? I think sometimes depression can have a lot of 'pressure cooker' moments, where venting becomes a must.
