I dont really understand life

[Dontlikemyself]

Hi. Im stu. Why was I born. And whats the point?

[Sophie_M]

Hey Stu,

Welcome to the forums, we are so glad that you decided to join us here today. We know that it takes a lot of strength to reach out for support, but it's so important that you have. It sounds like things are feeling quite lonely and overwhelming for you at the moment, but please know that you've come to a safe space to express your true feelings, and our community are here to help you through this difficult time. 

If you feel up to it, we'd also encourage you to reach out to our Beyond Blue Support Service, which is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or through Webchat (1pm-12am AEST) at: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals. Our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) and Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467) are also there for you anytime, when you're feeling overwhelmed and needing to talk it through. You're never alone. 

We hope that you find some comfort from our kind, and non-judgemental community, and please feel free to post further if you'd like to tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help support you through this.

 

[Dontlikemyself]

Ive failed as a husband, a dad, and a person. I hate myself

[Not_Batman]

Hi Stu.

Welcome, and top effort for taking a step and reaching out. I hope there is some advice you can use on these forums like i found.

on another thread i recall someone saying that we didnt ask to be born, but we have the gift of life.

What is the point is another interesting question. The meaning of life, without getting philosophical, is what you make it to be...and like many people i’m still trying to figure it out.

Thinking of ourselves as failures seems to be quite common, and coupled with splash of depression makes it seem worse.

So whats led you to this conclusion about yourself?

Not_Batman

[Ggrand]

Dear Stu..

A very warm and caring welcome to the forums..

Your very short post was enough to let us know that your struggling very hard right now..and I am so sorry...

Our lovely Sophie has given you some great contacts..Please if your feeling unsafe can I gently urge you to contact them...

Stu...We are here for you if you feel to talk..it’s up to you how little or how much you feel to share...It’s okay to chat about anything you feel up to..if your not feeling comfortable about sharing what’s going on.,,there’s no pressure here...just care and support for each other the best we can..

I really hope you will pop back in and keep us updated on how your feeling..

My kindest and most caring thoughts dear Stu..

Grandy...

[Dontlikemyself]

I feel crap. I know im going downhill but i just dont care anymore. I try so hard, every day. Every day i struggle. Now i drink lots. Im bad. Its wrong i know. Where do i go. I have no friends. Im sorry to even be on here. Dont even know what im looking for. Im so so lost. Probably venting. Doesnt matter

[Dontlikemyself]

Bottom line. Im at rock bottom. Feel sick. No motivation no friends or family who care. Hide myself from my boys. Cry alone. I always cry. Why. I didnt do anything to anyone ever

[Sophie_M]

Hi Dontlikemyself, thanks for joining us on the forum tonight. We can hear that you are experiencing some very difficult and painful emotions at the moment and we know this must be so exhausting. We hope you know that there is support available if you need it including our Support Service who are trying to contact you via email. 

There are also a number of other Support Services you might like to contact. Our friends at Lifeline are available on 13 11 14 and https://www.lifeline.org.au/Get-Help/Online-Services/crisis-chat (online chat available 7pm-12am). Additionally, the Suicide Call Back Service can be reached on 1300 659 467.

If you find yourself in a situation where you become an immediate danger to yourself, this is an emergency and you should call 000 (triple zero).

Many of our members have also been through a lot in their lives and will be able to talk through these feelings with you.  If you would like to post further, please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help support you.

[Dontlikemyself]

I dont belong anymore and dont value myself. Ex cop. Seen it all. Helped so many but dont know how to help myself. Probably wont post anymore. Making me worse. Whoever reads this, thank you. People should know that sometimes the toughest in the community fall apart too.

[Dontlikemyself]

Im confused Sophie. I dont know who i am anymore. Im no danger to anyone. Is it strange that id like to just drive out into the desert and be totally alone? Is it strange i want to isolate to protect my family? What's wrong with me. Why am i like this. We have a dog Millie. She likes me i think. I find solitude so easy now. I can cry and no-one sees me. Am i mental? What Am i looking for. Am i even worthy to be on here? Can anyone help me