Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[Sophie_M]

Hi mb20lover,

We're so sorry to hear that you had such a negative experience tonight and that this has left you feeling awful. We're getting in touch with you privately to offer some support.

You are right that bullying is not okay. We hope that you can find something tonight to bring you some comfort, perhaps you can listen to some of your favourite music if you think this might help a bit.

We hope that you know you're not alone and you have lots of friends here in the community.

[Matchy69]

Tayla I am sorry you had such an awful experience like that.That person was really horrible and nasty and has severe problems themselves.You have nothing to be ashamed of.I know how much bullies can hurt.You have the rite to be safe and this was unacceptable.
Take care,
Mark.

[Ggrand]

Hi Tayla...

I am sorry that happened to you ...It really is unacceptable behaviour and should be reported to the peer chat leader...

You have done nothing wrong honey....The people who sent those emoji characters are the ones with problems...

Sending you some gentle warm hugs with lots of care....sweet Tayla...

We are here if you need to talk...

Grandy...

[Guest_4643]

Yeah it was really upsetting, the mods at Headspace in the chat didn't really seem to care. I asked them if they could contact my Psychiatrist as they have before with my permission but they said no..

I sent an email for him, I bet he's annoyed and mad with me. I guess he would still somewhat care and be concerned, right?

Thanks for the kind words Sophie, Mark and Grandy.

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla I like your new profile picture.I am sure your phychiatrist wouldn't be mad at you as you haven't done anything wrong.Health professionals are their to help you and should be their when you need them.
Take care,
Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Mark.

Hopefully he isn't mad and is just caring and concerned, I don't mean that in a selfish way. I wanted to tell him before our session

[Guest_4643]

Don't know how my GP and Psychiatrist, especially my Psychiatrist, put up with me. They probably find me really stressful and annoying and a burden, I know I feel that way. I don't mean to be. I probably drive them insane, they probably think I'm insane amongst other things. I'm thankful for them of course.

I guess it takes a special type of person to be a GP, let alone a Psychiatrist, and they need to have patience, people skills, etc.

I hope he cares and doesn't drop me, same with my GP.

[Guest_4643]

I can't stop thinking about it and thinking awful things, and beating myself up mentally. I keep thinking he hates me and I stressed him out, and he's judging me (my Psychiatrist) and my GP will too. I can't take this, it's hard to deal with

[Matchy69]

Tayla I can positively say your phychiatrist and phychologist won't be made at you.They are experts in mental health and have seen it all and are use to it.They will try their hardest to help you it is their profession.I hope you can do something nice for yourself today.
Take care,
Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Mark, hopefully you're right. I guess I'll find out on Monday.