Hi Tayla,
Wow that sounds really difficult. I can understand if you're feeling low because of that interaction with your Dr.
It sounds like things are really getting on top of you. Perhaps too a lot of it could be traced back to that moment of being vulnerable with your Dr, telling him how it affects you to see other girls who have friends, when you don't. Thats understandable, and he really missed an opportunity to practice empathy and compassion with you. That's his problem, not yours.
This is going to be difficult hon, but if I could suggest- it would be good if you could separate the issues that you're having. Maybe write them down on paper, then once they're all written down, put them into categories, or columns. If you don't like writing you could type them up and cut them out separately, then put them under headings like: medical, psychological, wellbeing, self esteem etc, whatever you can think of. Not too many headings tho. 4-5?.
Now, this is the hard part: DON"T stop there! Continue on, get some help from family or your social worker, and together you can develop strategies. And maybe one strategy will help something else.
So for eg the woman/neighbour who is harassing you. A solution might be to tell her very firmly that you have to go, or that you don't want her to visit you, whatever it is. The strategy might involve improving your self esteem, or your assertiveness skills. This is stuff you CAN do, and will also have an effect on other areas of your life.
Brainstorm as many solutions and strategies as you can, include them all even if you don't think they will work. You could use a whiteboard, or big sheet of paper.
I said it might be difficult, because you will need to be very determined, and persevere, for life to improve.
And of course, feel free to disregard my suggestion if it doesn't sound good to you.
I'm reminded of a tangle, y'know, when a ball of string gets all tangled and knotted. Sometimes we can't see the beginning, the end thread which will help it to all unravel and be smooth again. So we start where we are, with what we can do. That's what I hope for you Tayla, that you can find one area in your life that you can untangle, make smooth, resolve an issue, and then that will in turn assist in untangling another area.
When we get overwhelmed it's very hard to see what we can do, or where to start. Start small, and persist.
You can do it!
Big hugs,
J*
