Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[Guest_206]

Hi there mb20lover,
I just want to say that I know you're struggling, but it's so lovely seeing how you always front up to support so many people on the forums even though you're hurting yourself.
Also I love your cute profile pic.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Guest_206, thanks for the kind words, that means a lot.

[amberlite]

Hello all and I must agree, mb is about the sweetest poster on line, I think that your are lovely, kind and duckie. Think of them Doctors, as just service providers, after all you give them employment. I am sure the Doctor thinks your lovely too, they just cant go there/ some professional line they must keep. And when people are mean it is because they usually want what you have- it's linked to jealousy. Because they can't be lovely, kind and duckie like you they pick at you, trying to make you stop being so admirable. So try very hard to not let them, dear.

[Guest_4643]

Hi amberlite.

Wow, thank you so very much. That means a lot to me. You're very kind, lovely and duckie yourself, and admirable. You made my day, thank you. You have no idea how much that means. Your words mean a lot too Guest_206.

[Guest_4643]

Still really anxious about Monday with my Psychiatrist and what he's going to say, and my GP when I tell him. And that the continence people haven't gotten back to me over 3 weeks ago when my GP did a referral to them regarding my bladder, which is still stressing me out. I'm not really in pain from that but I am from my bunion and something else wrong with my toe like an ingrown toenail or something, and my asthma. Nothing seems easy for me, everything feels like a struggle. Just worried they'll be judging me and thinking I'm annoying, a burden, etc.

[Guest_4643]

I shouldn't have told my Psychiatrist, maybe I shouldn't tell my GP either. Ugh I hate these thoughts.

[Guest_4643]

I'm so stupid

[Matchy69]

No your not.I think your smart bright and caring.

[Guest_4643]

Thank you Mark, I appreciate that

[amberlite]

You are NOT stupid, I read the hope thread and you were so kind, I found the thread all a bit manic, but you don't judge and your always trying to help others. Your innocence is your charm and you wear it, so well.