Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[Guest_4643]

Starting the new meds tomorrow. Hopefully I don't react to them and the side effects are tolerable.

[felix mendelssohn]

Hey Tayla!

Not my intention to barge into the middle of anything, but just wanted to say hello! It's probably been like... a year and a half since we last chatted on here so not sure if you remember me, but at the very least I want you to know that my heart was gladdened when I saw that you're still active and kicking along in these forums.

I am a bit too tired tonight to read through the extensive history of this thread (I will try to skim if I get the chance later), so for now all I will say is that I sincerely hope life has been treating you a bit more kindly than when last we spoke. Best of luck with the new meds, and chat soon 🙂

Felix

[Guest_4643]

Hi Felix. No you're not barging but thank you. You sure it's been a year? Yes I remember you. That's very kind of you to say that you're gladdened I'm still here, thank you, that means a lot. Glad to see you around too. And yeah this is the thread that I stick to that I made myself. Thank you, started new meds tonight. Been feeling a bit unwell in the stomach though.

[Guest_4643]

I was feeling ok before now I feel miserable. I saw something that triggered me a lot. I was just looking on some page and found it so I guess in a way it's my own fault. I'm stupid. Now I feel suicidal and depressed. Plus new meds tonight, and not feeling the best in the stomach either. No one's around to talk to. Helplines make me wait forever.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Mb20lover,

We're sorry to hear how unwell you're feeling tonight, we know how unsettling new medication can be. It's great to hear that you're reaching out to a Helpline at the moment and hopefully, they get back to you soon.

While you're waiting perhaps you could try some of the relaxation exercises outlined in this article: https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/staying-well/relaxation-exercises

Or you could try some of the activities listed here to relieve stress: https://au.reachout.com/articles/10-tips-for-coping-with-the-hard-stuff

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Sophie.

I'll have a look at those articles.

[quirkywords]

mblover

So sorry you are feeling triggered. I know what you mean.

I watched a doco last night and should have known it would trigger me because of the subject matter.

You are sensitive not stupid. You are friendly and help so many people on the forums. Take care,

[Matchy69]

Sorry Tayla you are struggling at the moment and you have started your new meds.They will take a while to work and get use and I hope they do work and the side effects are not to bad.
Take care,
Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Thanks quirky and Mark.

Still haven't heard from the continence people about my bladder. This town is a joke. It was nearly 2 weeks ago. It ain't that hard to make a phone call. It's their job to follow up, not mine. I don't even know who to call or the number.

[Guest_4643]

Hmm the vomiting and diarrhea is back that I had even while I was on my old meds. The tests came back normal though. Just don't want to put up with anything anymore.