Hi everyone, I'm back.

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, mb20lover here. I wasn't sure where to post this.

It's been a while since I was on the forums, so I just wanted to make a post saying that I'm back. However, I'll try my best to limit my time, comments, etc on here.

I won't bother tagging anyone, and I'll try to keep this as my only open thread that I have created.

I've missed everyone I've spoken to on here, and I hope to talk to some new people. I have been using my offline supports - my Psychiatrist, GP, Parent support of course, and a Social Worker. I'm in the process of finding a Psychologist but I'm having no luck.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hello, and also I hope I haven't upset anyone on the forums or anything like that because nothing was intentional, so I deeply apologise.

An update on me, I recently turned 21, can't do much with COVID though, it's a hard year for everyone unfortunately.

I also have a milestone, an achievement, I've been seeing my Psychiatrist for a year which is the longest I've stayed with a therapist. And I also finally have a GP I feel comfortable with. I'm on different meds that seem to be working a little but I still of course have my moments, but these meds I've been on the longest for out of any of the ones I've tried.

Other than that, please don't feel pressured to comment anyone, although it would be nice to connect with some people, old or new, but like I said that's okay. I just wanted to check in.

If you've read this and made it this far, thank you. Stay safe and take care everyone, as much as possible with the unfortunate COVID circumstances.

Thinking of all the Beyond Blue Mods & Users. I've missed everyone.

- mb20lover.

[Guest_4643]

I don't know what to do. I feel really SI & SH, just the thoughts. I don't feel like I'll act. I guess I'm safe.

I just can't handle being bullied, I have been my whole life online & in person. eHeadspace didn't care, they kept telling me to let it go & acting like it didn't happen. I can't cope with it. I don't know what to do. I won't use them again but the trauma is still there. My Mum knows but not my Dad. My Psychiatrist and GP know.

I can't print out the chat because I don't think it will let me plus the comments are deleted that were said, flagged or whatever happens. I kept explaining that and they didn't understand and kept trying to blame me.

I would never bully anyone and would never make that stuff up.

I'm so upset and hurt.

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla I am sorry that chat eHeadspace has triggered you.Just remember it is not your fault you are a lovely caring person.They should have taken this further.You could report it further up or a email to a politician.Very unacceptable especially how they are treating you.
I take screen shots of anything bad and have a heap of real nasty text from my ex andy solicitor has a copy of them to.
Take care,
Mark.

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Mark.

I'm very sorry to hear about your ex. Glad you have a solicitor to take care of it. My GP wants to see copies so I'll figure something out.

I wish I was a good person, but thank you. I always do something wrong uninentionally

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla I have learnt over the years to try and protect myself from the bullies.
You are a good person and a caring compassionate person .

[Guest_4643]

I always do something wrong, even on here. Nothing I do is ever good enough or right. Everything is always my fault.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Mb20lover, 

You are a valuable part of this community and we are so glad that you are able to share your experiences with us. We also value your support for the other memebers - sometimes it can be hard to recorgnise that in ourselves.

Your contributions are certainly good enough and you bring a lot of great insights to this community.

Kind regards, 

Sophie M

[Guest_4643]

I wish, I don't feel like that at all. Thanks anyway.

[Matchy69]

Please try and be kind to yourself.I wish you could see yourself the way I do and many others do of a warm caring person.

[Guest_4643]

Thanks Mark but I can't. Whatever I do is wrong and I just get judged for it

[Guest_4643]

I can't handle it anymore