Hey Tayla,
I just looked up bunions on the net. Looks like a doc isn't going to help much, but it may be helpful to talk to a pharmacist and ask for assistance- apparently there's some gel filled sacs which can cushion the foot. Also it recommends a wide toed shoe which doesn't press on the foot.
You sound a bit stressed and anxious hon- what are your strategies for coping with these feelings? What works for you?
It would be perfectly normal for you to be freaking out a bit, with everything going on. Just maybe, don't let it overwhelm you. Try and just deal with what you can, when you can. Make lists of your priorities, write down the stuff your worried about. You could keep a journal, if you don't already. I find that a great tool for quieting my mind. Watch for repetitive thoughts, and see if you can catch them. When you catch them, don't judge yourself harshly, just notice- ahh, here I go, thinking this thought again. Interesting!
Our mind can make us believe it's in control. I prefer it when I'm in control. That way, when I notice I'm thinking in unhelpful ways, I have a bit more choice what I do with those thoughts. We don't have to listen or obey our thoughts. They're just random little sequences which pop in and out, some friendly, some not so....
Be well,
J*
