Depression - life

[randomxx]

Hi to all.

Some will know l've had my ups and downs for sure but l wanted to start this as a new and separate thread bc the old one wound up all about gf ex.

Just for the most that won't know though and happen to drop in, l got rid of of my place 6mths back and went caravaning 51/2 mths, just couldn't deal with another place at the time and just felt like a bloody good break and rest first.

Wasn't sure how l'd feel about it but it wasn't bad and at times really nice just being free for a bit but later 50s there were also the worries of what to do when l get back. Well back now is too my other place it's not really that l had two houses the second one is just a country block with a cabin in a tiny town that l just rent out, never lived there. Well the tenant moved out so that's where l've come back to, l need to fix it up and sell it toward my new place.

This little town this whole thing , not doing me any good at all in this stage of life. l did have to get out of my other place don't regret it it had to be done but it's just been such a huge last 10yrs or so. Divorce and all thenlater on just broken up with later new gf now ex just last yr and now all this and here l am in this place- and then l'll be somewhere else to where l'm thinking of moving to, maybe even building . lf so it'll only be small and minimalist buttt, ldk

Just feel like total bs it's all too much and it's like what in the hell am l even doing especially here right now and at this age but ldk how else l could've done things.l had to get out of my last place, l have to be here to fix up this one and it's somewhere at least to stay, it'll be  a few mths.

Been coming here 20yrs keeping this place up and all the same people are still here couples been together and still here all that time and still sitting in their homes watching tv and doing their lives together.

The total opposite lives to mine and now l;m even single and here doing this and then wherever later restarting again andddd, it's all just sooooo, words l can't use here.

rx

[therising]

Hi rx

Wondering how the travels are going. Any fascinating or inspiring people you've come across lately?

[randomxx]

Hi tr and thanks for that.

Been a nice few wks of late. Some great fires and people and a bit of fun into the night. We've all moved on since now though they were going somewhere else and l was on my way over to the new area l've been thinking about and got here earlier this wk.

So atm l'm still in the middle of setting up , was so tired when l got here l just plonked first spot l saw for now but moving over to a better one after l've rested up. On other notes it's been a pretty big mth or so car problems and some stuff going on at home too for my d - which is great stuff thk God but then separately also with my ex w too but on the other hand, that part not so great , for her l mean. Poor thing l hope she can get through it alright but it was a real shock and l am a bit worried about her.

Anyway, whole nother story but soooo, but of a mixed bag .

Take care.

rx

[therising]

Hi rx

I wish for the sake of everyone you knew that the news was good all 'round. With the opportunity for some lighthearted soulful fun over the past weeks, a chance to travel to the places that bring you joy and the freedom to sit and meditate on what brings you a sense of peace within your surroundings, I hope all this eases some of your concern. While it's a blessing to be able to feel for other people, it can definitely also be challenging at times. Two sides of the feeling or sensitive coin.

Hoping the car didn't cost too much to repair, eating into your adventure fund.

[randomxx]

l've been over in the new area l was thinking about , last few wks.

Got a beautiful spot just a few k out of town, mind you there is a busy road up along the hill running past it. The rds a good 80mtrs away though and higher up l'm surprised the noise gets down and into along the caravaning strip below. There's a gorgeous dry crk bed with lots of beautiful Gums and trees in between and running along, always been one of my favs love dry crk beds. The caravan strip is about a k long and so nice, huge old gums and this crk bed with lovely short grass roos come in and trim every morning , all weaving in and out along this shallow gully , lovely spot.

Just love the country round here and the bushy areas , but also still with a lot of te huge old gums scattered through the countryside as well, kinda dryish landscape, another of my favs.Some gorgeous properties through the area and lots of old rock buildings from the gold mining days. Yet you can cruise into town and be in this monster plaza in 10mins.

Sometimes this caravaning life is just so damn nice, still in no hurry getting back to reality. Although l did stumble over a property coming back from toen the other day, l'd buy tomorrow if l had the money. 700k though so that won't be happening ha ha.

l'm in love with the house on it, it's an old pub built out of the original hand made bricks they use to build with in the 1800s round here. What a bloody gorgeous building but alas , she can't be mine at the price- bugger.

over and out

rx