A warm welcome to you at a time in your life where you may be wondering 'Why do I feel like I swing from one extreme to the other?'. An official diagnosis from a therapist or 2 may see you tick all the boxes for bipolar. If you'd prefer to see it all from a natural perspective, as opposed to a clinical perspective, I suppose you could ask 'Why do I naturally swing from one extreme to another, in such intense ways?' or 'Why is it in my nature to do this?'.
I'm wondering if you know what some or a lot of your triggers are, such as what or who swings you? Do you naturally swing at certain times of the year, at certain times of the month or under specific circumstances? What do the highs and lows look and feel like? Could you naturally be a super hyper person who experiences periods of almost complete exhaustion of energy, to the point where the lack of energy feels soul destroying or deeply depressing? Are there some truly inspirational parts of you that come to life under certain circumstances but seem to sadly go out the door on occasion? I could go on with a whole stack of questions, when it comes to who you could naturally be. I've found that the quest to truly know our self can typically come with so many questions. Greater self understanding is, I believe, the ultimate quest. 'Who am I? Why am I here? What is my purpose? How do I naturally tick? What leads me to think and feel the way I do?' and on it goes.
Not sure whether you like to look at things from a mental perspective, a physical perspective or a soulful perspective. Personally, I'm a gal who likes to look at things from all 3 angles at times. From a psychological angle, I've been diagnosed as someone who is 'prone to depression' and 'someone who'll most likely suffer for the rest of my life, on and off'. Sounds pretty depressing, hey? I much prefer a natural take on things. I like to think of myself as a 'feeler' or a 'sensitive', someone who can feel or sense what's depressing. Not always easy to get a feel for or a sense of exactly what it is at times but I eventually get there. This tends to look like a natural cycle for me. At 54, it took me decades to finally work this out. I'll begin to feel something taking me out of a high. I'll then start to cycle into a low. I'll then enter into a period of self analysis, which can involve a heck of a lot of inner dialogue (some of it deeply challenging). Sometimes I may enter into a time of anger, with myself or others as I start to address angering reasons for why I feel the downshift. I'll then hit on some major revelation that will take me back into a high. I've now cycled up into becoming more conscious than I was before the cycle came about. Within that cycle, there can be mental challenges, chemical challenges (such as a lack of dopamine) and some seemingly soul destroying challenges to tackle. For me personally, a fast tracking question through a cycle is 'What's the trigger and what's it leading me to address?'. I've found a whole number of triggers over the years as I've come to know myself better. From depressing levels of B12 deficiency through to soul destroying relationships, the triggers for me have varied greatly and I could feel them all.
Would you say it's helpful to ask 'What do I naturally have the ability to feel at times?'.
