What is wrong with me?

[yuuko_san_666]

As the title indicates, I want to understand what exactly is wrong with me; or whether someting is wrong with me at all. So i would appreciate any suggestions. I can't remeber the last time i felt happy. A few years back I used to cry everyday- twice. One, before going to bed and second, after returning home from school. Everyday I would remind myself of all my insecurities and all the reasons i should be sd about. Moreover i couldn't share these feelings with anyone in the fear that i would annoy them. Soon I lost trust in family and friends and would keep to myself. This started a few a years back and had persisted till date. I stopped studying because of this. The crying stopped after a point of time. But the emptiness stayed inside me. I have considered taking my life a few times but held back because of my mother However, as of late, I have started crying again. I thought that sharing it would perhaps solve the problem, and so i did share it some close people. However I regretted the fact that i ever shared it with them. Not because they didn't care. They listened untill the end but didn't want to understand. They simply told me to let go my silly problems and focus more on my life. Even my best friend gets annoyed. Hence I am confused whether this poses as a real problem or the ramblings of a teenager.I would like to understand that the most. Like i said any help would be appreciated. Please excuse any mistakes in grammer and sentence construction. Thank you. 

[White_Rose]

Dear Yuuko

So pleased you got back to us. I know there is a huge stigma associated with any mental illness and it is sad that young people are the most affected by it, particularly when they so often are the people most in need.

As Geoff has said, your GP can arrange some free counseling sessions and you could attend one of the quality therapy practices in your area. There is no need to tell your school friends or teachers.  At the very least would you go and see your doctor? Your doctor can help in all sorts of ways.

I understand what you are saying about your neighbourhood being conservative.  But think about this.  If everyone in your area thought that any kind of therapy was not good, the therapy centres would be closed by now. People do get counselling and do benefit from it.  Anyway, I will leave that for you to think about.

Did you think about talking to your mom about your dad? You are carrying a very heavy burden and doing it alone is not good. You should be out enjoying life and I wish I could help you do that. I will stop nagging now after one last plea that you go and see your doctor.

Remember that we are here for you all the time.

Big hug to you

LING

[White_Rose]

Dear Yuuko

Haven't heard from you for a few days.  Is everything OK?  I hope you will continue to write in here and that it will help you. 

We are all interested in how you are managing.  Please let us know.

Big hug

LING