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[Jade12]

It's been a while since my last post. I am feeling really bad right now, and struggling so much. I feel unloved, worthless, and useless. I am constantly alone and dont have the opportunity to get out, because I dont yet have a licence. My boyfriend and only friend hardly ever wants to see me since he is so busy with uni. I too often sit alone in my room and turn all the lights off and cry. I am facing suicidal thoughts, and having previously self harmed I am struggling to keep my head above water. I feel like the world would be better of without me because so many people in my life complain about everything I do, its as if effort does not matter its only if you do or dont succeed. I thought the world was a better place and I wish I could meet someone who could care for my existence because I feel like there is nothing in this road ahead, only pain and suffering. Each day is just the process of enduring more and more pain, eating away at you nerves, eating away at who you think you are, who you are and who you want to be. I dont what to do.   

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[Jade12]

The weeks been on and off. All over the place. A lot of the time I just feel confused cause I forget who I am. Who I am to this world or anyone, cause I have no one to talk to. And anyone I talk to just seems to have preconcieved ideas or trys to give solutions but won't really listen or help me get my way out of it. This week, there has been some good days 🙂

[Jade12]

When I feel depressed I don't know if I should curl up in a ball or try to ask for help. I think I should talk on here more often, this has been the best thing I've done. Every other source of help just hurts me more. Or frustrates me

[Neil_1]

Hey Love

Well you know ONE thing for sure - we're here and we'll support you 100%.

It's great that you've come back here.  Well not great because you're still feeling not so flash - but it's great that you know here is a good place.

I'm just so disappointed for you that you aren't able to find the right support mechanisms where you've been to and tried.  That saddens me.

Curl up in a ball or ask for help?   Very good question.  But now you're back here, you can definitely do both.

Come here and type up your post - press send and then go and get under your doona for a number of hours.  Then when you come out, you'll have received some responses of advice, care and support to you.

Almost a little bit like fishing - only with here, you know you're going to catch something - and that something is support for you.  I was going to say wisdom, but that won't be from me - you'll have to get that from others.  🙂

Kind regards

Neil

[Jade12]

Awww, curl up in a ball and ask for help at the same time :). Thankyou that makes me feel a bit better