I've been feeling really anxious, depressed, angry, alone and even a bit suicidal for the last two and a half years. I've recently told my parents and my brother, I haven't told them about my suicidal thoughts though, I don't want to freak them out or tell them why. They were reassuring when my school counsellor told them about my self harming and depression. I find it hard to talk to them about stuff. I used to talk to my friend Michael but he told half my year about my depression and suicidal thoughts. I told him that I didn't want to be friends anymore, because every time I would tell him something he would tell others and he always made excuses, a couple of times he's gotten me so angry that I would self harm. Michael would continuously hurt me and I'd always forgive him, but he was such a good friend. Did I make the right choice?
I've been feeling depressed and alone for weeks now and I just want it all to go away. I want the anxiety, the pain and the anger to all just go away. My emotions are everywhere all the time, I feel as if I have no control over them. My emotions rotate from angry to sad to alone to anxious to stressed to tired but I constantly feel depressed and angry. Is there something wrong with me? How can I take control of my emotions? I just want it all to go away. I feel so stressed out, I'm a type one diabetic and I've recently changed my insulin and have had to take extra precautions with what I eat and its just stressing me out, sometimes I forget to do my insulin and I just get so angry. Sometimes I'm afraid that if i can't control my anger that I'm going to break something or hurt someone.
I just want it to all go away and control over my emotions.
