Dear depression,
I want my boyfriend back please.
He’s been gone for three months now and I’d like him back.
Occasionally over the last three months he has broken through you, depression, and has given me clarity, he’ll tell me he loves me and that everything will be okay, but most of the last three months has been him taken over by you, depression. I’m trying to be strong. I’m trying to wait until you go away, but I’ve had enough!!
People ask after my boyfriend and I say, 'he’s good,' but I just want to shout at them and yell, ‘This thing called depression is visiting and has taken him away from me and he’s not at all good!!’
The hardest thing, depression, is when you make him withdraw so much that he won’t talk to me, he won’t respond to calls or texts for days, it’s devastating and worries me so much.
When depression wasn’t visiting this was a man who told me lovely things, we spoke of moving in together and getting married, it was amazing. He knows me and I know him, we get each other. We have so much fun. We laugh at the silliest things until we cry. We have both never been in a relationship quite so good, quite so right.
You think, depression, that you can tell him things that he will believe, negative things, that nothing is right and nothing is good enough. Well, you’re not fooling me and soon you won’t be able to fool him anymore either.
Depression, you’ve made us both feel anxiety about our future. You have made my beautiful man behave differently, he talks slowly, he can’t make decisions and he gets terrible headaches when you’re around.
He is the love of my life and you cannot have him!! You really have gotten in the way of our relationship. We’ll fight you off eventually and, no, you cannot come back, not even for a visit.
